03-12-2008 - Baby blues??

My mood while writing this blog: low

Im feelin pretty low today, its only just registered that im a single parent and i feel so lonely. I seen 1 of my friends earlier and she said she doesnt know how i cope on my own and she wouldnt know wot to do without her boyfriend!

I think im coping really well but i just feel like im doin everythin on my own.. i know my life should revolve around my baby but i just wish i could have a decent nights sleep even if it was just once a week or somethin! Broken sleep is not doin me any good!! My friend had jake last night while i went out for a bit and i really enjoyed myself. It shouldnt be my friends helpin me it should be jakes dad, he hasnt been round to see him for a week and he still hasnt paid me any money he owes me nevermind maintenence money for jake.. hes always makin excuses, yet he always seems to have money to spend on his girlfriend and goin out drinkin, its just really gettin me down!!! I think the novelty has worn off now, hes shown jake off to all his friends and now hes bored! He hasnt even fed him or changed his nappy yet!! He doesnt have a clue how to make a bottle up! I told him ill show him and the response i get was "show me another time"...

Argh im so pissed off!!! is there anyone else out there in my situation???? if so how are you coping??

xxxx