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kayleejane
	Age: 21 Country: UK Province/region: -warwickshire City: -nuneaton Partner: Chris - Not together anymore! Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Deputy Manager
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24-11-2009 - Single & Hating It

My mood while writing this blog:
Lonely

Hi ladies!

Just a quick blog... Ive been thinking lately how unhappy and lonely i am!! Im still in love with Jakes daddy, we split up when i found out i was pregnant! Since then he has been with someone else and i found that really hard to deal with. Then when i moved out of the area, i didnt speak to him for months (cuz he went psycho). But then in march/april this year we started to get back to talking terms. He started to prove himself to me, hes started going to church and is really getting his life back on track. Then when him and his girlfriend split up i got back with him and he was going to move here. But that didnt happen and we decided to just be friends. But everytime he comes up to visit Jake we always end up sleeping together and my feelings always come flooding back.

I really want to get over him and move on!! I want to think of him just as a friend that is Jakes dad if that makes sense? I dont wana find out hes with someone cuz i'll get upset all over again. Its been a year and a half since we split up the first time, why am i not over him yet?!

xxxxx

2 Comments on Single & Hating It

KyMMie MuMMy - Tuesday, 24 Nov
Kayleejane it sounds like you are going thrrough alot right now. I know how you are feeling and have been there. I left my little girls' biological father when she was a year and a bit. He was a poisinous person who only brought negativity into my life. Leaving my daughters' biological father was the best thing i have EVER done. I have since married a comitted, loving man and we have had a son and are expecting baby # 3. Him and my daughter are so close. If it wasnt for her olive complection no one would be able to guess she wasnt his little girl biologically. but as far as he's concerened she is. My point: You are beautiful and smart and you dont need Jakes' dad. Just because you have a baby with some one doesnt mean you have to be with them. I know it's hard when feelings are involved. But you and your son deserves better than him. I wish you all the best. You WILL find some one. Enjoy this down time and use it to sort yourself out :-) best of luck xox

heidismummy - Tuesday, 24 Nov
i know its a cliche but you are still young and have your pick of loads of men out there! dont feel he is your only option! you have tried several times with him and it didnt work, thats a sign that its not meant to be. i think the worst thing you are doing is sleeping with him when you see him, he has showed that he can move on and is not wanting to be in a relationship with you so set your sights higher and aim for a man who wants you, not just someone to sleep with as and when he feels like it. men dont get emotional attachments when they sleep with women where as us women do, so i think that would be the key thing for you to stop! he is just using you at the moment and you want him to turn around and say how much he loves you and wants to be with you, but it doesnt sound like thats what he is after. remember you are doing a great job being a single mum so try and have a bit more respect for yourself. best of luck!

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