11-9-2008 - Today's appt........

My mood while writing this blog: indifferent!

Well, we had our 18 week ultrasound this morning! If you've read about my previous pregnancy you know that it ended around 19 weeks due to a rare nueral tube defect that was spotted during the 18 week ultrasound. Needless to say, I WAS A NERVOUS WRECK!!! I had nightmares all last night and was up at 6 am for a 9:30 appt.

Well, we get there and of coarse have to wait about a half hour.... When we went in I immedietely told the tech how nervous I was due to our past experience... She was NOT very comforting! Actually, I would say she was boarderline mean.... It was a level 2 ultrasound so she spent a lot of time looking at the organs and taking pictures.... About 20 minutes into it she told us that it was a BOY my husband literally cheered! I was slightly dissappointed but happy too..... (and yes, my intelligender test was correct).....

Well, anyway after she is done "misc. Dr number 1" comes in to take some "routine pics.." This seemed a bit odd to me.... So, I started questioning her.... Finally I got her tell me that they saw a "spot" in the heart............................................................................................................................

My eyes filled with tears and I couldn't control them pouring out.... I started asking questions but of coarse she said, "Dr number 2 can answer all your questions, blah blah blah" Well, being the bitch I can be I sat up and said sternly, "Well how about you leave and go get Doc number 2 NOW..." She did and the second lady comes in... This lady was just as useless at explaining the "spot.." as the first. She kept giving us numbers and odds and finally, I said that I just wanted my Dr and I WAS DONE! I had an appointment with him following the ultrasound... We went on to that appt (me wearing my sunglasses in the waiting room; something thats getting routine for my pregnancys)..... Well, to make a long story short our Dr was MUCH more reassuring!!!!! He said that today's technology is very advanced and it picks up things that would have went unnoticed 5 yrs ago... He said that the ultrasound people see 4-5 heart "spots" a day and it's usually nothing... They only thing that it could be is Downs Syndrome and my 13 weeks screaning came back perfect for that... He said my risk for having a downs baby after the 13 weeks screening was 1 and 10,000 and now with the "spot" maybe it's 1 and 9,000...... So, I began feeling a little better... He doesn't even recommend having an amnio.... So, I'm trying to stay positive but I really think I hate ultrasounds now.... I think I've cried more in the last year during ultrasounds that I have in my entire life........Anyone every hear of anyones baby having a "spot" on it's heart found during an ultrasound??? I'm going to try and stay off the internet on this one but I know myself too well...................

I am excited about the boy.. Afterwards I went shopping with my mom and got some cute stuff... I'll try and post some pics soon! Sorry for the long winded blog....