14-11-2008 - he is insane

My mood while writing this blog: livid

so bd kicked off big time yet again, he was due to have Reggie or in his words 'babysit' for a few hours while I went out. He had a big tantrum about something quite pointless and it was of course just an excuse to cause an arguement and I haven't heard from him since well apart from a few crappy text messages. He told me to go it alone, which I have been doing anyway. He blows hot and cold.

What I don't understand is how he can go from being super into him to not even asking after him for 2 weeks. Of course because I'm not bowing down to him he'll take it out on Reggie by shunning him.

When he was born, we said the past can't be changed so let's work on doing the best for Reggie as parents. Seemed that only applies if I allow him to treat me like shit. I look at my boy and just feel so sad that no matter how hard I tried to give him a normal (ish) childhood his bloody mental bd is just gonna make it hard.

He hasn't even bothered to ask if he is ok but is now making demands to see 'my son'. I know he'll be painting me as a bitch, it takes a real man to admit his short comings and that he so obviously isn't. I now really don't want him messing my boy around. What is he gonna teach him, how to disrespects his mother and treat women like shit!!!