20-2-2009 - Bed Rest....Yea right

My mood while writing this blog: Upset

Upset is an understatement. Ok here's a little back ground. Back in November I took over taking care of being my mom's chore person...meaning- laundry,running around, cleaning her apartment,ect. Well everything was fine for a few weeks. But then for some reason she has it in her head that I'm at her beck and call, whenever she she say jump, I'm suppose to ask how high. Now keep in mind, I live with my dad, who I also take care of. I take him to all of his doctor appointments, shopping, ect. I'm also still working, plus my own doctors appointments and everyday running. But it seems between both my parents and work I'm just running out of steam.

Now at my last doctors appointment, my doc put me on bed rest because I have strained my upper adominal muscles......in other words I'm in pain. Well apparently me being on bed rest doesn't mean anything to anyone except me. The simplest thing like going up and down the stairs kills me everytime. But as far as my mom's concerned...I should just get in my car and take her somewhere, come clean her apartment, just plain old stupid shit (sorry). My dad gets his attitude because I don't feel up to doing anything for him.

Now this is nothing that is new. Both my parents are in bad health, but what about my health and my baby's health. Neither of them seem to care that I'm suppose to be on bed rest.Well I finally just lost it on my mom. She had called and left a message for me to come over and take her to the bank, get something to eat, and wash some clothes for her. Now this is the problem I have with that plan. I took her to the docs yesturday, took her to eat after. Now why didn't she ask to go to the bank while we were out. I don't understand why she needs money anyways, she doesn't drive, never goes anywhere with anyone unless I take her, so why does she need money.....boggles my mind. Anyways, I told her I couldn't come by today because I was hurting to bad to leave, I'm suppose to be on bed rest and no one will let me. She did the whole guilt thing on me.....WHY. So now she's going to look into getting someone else to take care of her. I never said I didn't want to, all I said was not right now. I need to take it easy.

All I want is for a minute for my body to heal....I don't think that's alot to ask for. I don't want to put my baby in harm in anyway. I just wish I had parents that could do thing s for themselves for once. Hell they use too, but now they are both just so dependant on getting things done for them...they now expect it. It just make me upset to see them this way.