28-2-2009 - Am I over reacting????

My mood while writing this blog: upset

Hi ladies.

So today was my shower. The shower went good, had a pretty good turn out even though hardly anyone RSVP'ed back. Got alot that I need, but can you beleive it...no bottles. Anyways everyone was on time and left when the time came...no one stayed behind which was shocking. So now is where the problem lies. My shower was held at my baby's father's mom's house. (Oh I keep forgetting to tell you, me and his mom "are partners in crime", we get along great, she is one of my best friends). Anyways she through the shower for me and Steve (baby's dad) came this morning to pick up her dog and kept her all day while the shower was going on. Well around 5:30pm or so Steve sent his mom a text asking if I was still there she told him yes. Then about a 1/2 hr later another text asking the same thing, still with the same answer. (So what we were sitting around talking about the day and yesturday...big deal, I was in no hurry to leave and she wasn't pushing me out the door either, so what's the big deal right). Well around 6:15 she gets another text saying he's bringing the dog back....no biggie. He never said I'm bringing Bev (new girlfriend). Well they get there to drop the dog off and she see everything I got today and goes over and starts going thru it all. Now keep in mind Steve was not by her at this time, he was actually talking to me and his mom. So next thing I know Bev is telling Steve.....come here you have to see what "our little one got today". He goes over and she makes a point of giving him a hug and kiss and then sits there and holds onto his hand. Well when she said that my heart sank, mouth dropped wide open, looked at his mom, looked at Steve and nothing would come out. I went completely silent...couldnt get a word out. This one little statement that she said made me feel like I was completely not there. Here it is my baby shower and she comes and takes it away by a couple of words. Nobody said anything like they didn't hear her. Well then the next thing I know she is asking all kinds of questions about if i got this or if I got that.....my answer was, damn you just looked at everything are any of those things there.....if the're not then no I didn't get them. So I got upset....no crying just upset. Packed up everything and left.

I wish I could have said something to her right then when this happen, but I honestly had no words. How can she just think all of this is ok? I could never do this to anyone, I have what you would call morals. And I don't understand why Steve is letting her say these things either. I have told him from the get go when I found out about her that she was not to be at my shower. I guess she really wasn't at the shower itself, but when I said I didn't want her there...I meant the whole day. I don't think that is too much to ask. I mean seriously how much am I suppose to just let go of before she crosses the line. Actually she already did once she gave her number to him knowing I was pregnant. But since he has been seeing her he has not been the same person towards me in the least bit. Today is the first day that I have seen him in almost a month, yes he does send text during the day while he's at work but not after work. But if I didn't have text messaging I really don't think I'd hear from him period. I'm pretty sure the next time I see him is when I'm in labor. don't get me wrong ladies....I don't want him back with me....but I do want my friend back. My friend Steve wouldn't treat me this way. So I'm trying to figure out why is he doing this to me and his baby or is it her. another thing I'm trying to figure out is, sense I told him she wasn't allowed at my shower, and he sorta kinda brought her after, is he also going to bring her to the hospital? I've told him and her that she's not allowed, but apparently what I say doesn't matter to either of them. And then I'm back to the whole thing about when this baby comes...is he going to want it around or is it going to be her.

I'm just at a complete loss and I'm trying to figure out if I'm over reacting.