26-3-2009 - Pain in my a@@!!!!

My mood while writing this blog: painful

Well I have a serious pain in my ass. It's called Nesting. I have been doing this now for about 3 weeks or so, but today it kicked in full force. I'm really hoping this nesting thing will go away soon. I can't rearrange anymore, nothing else needs to be cleaned, there is only so much laundry one person can do. Today I just couldn't stop, and now my ass has this pain that won't go away.....damn sciatic nerve. I totally over did it and I'm paying for it now. I can't sit, stand,lay down nothing. Even though I feel like crap the house looks awesome from floor to ceiling. So that at least makes me feel good. I really need to just be lazy tomorrow and relax.....I sure hope I don't get this sudden urge to do something new, cuz seriously I don't think I can physically do anything else.

Onto another pain in my ass, you all should know who this is about.

Another thing that happen today.......ex called and wanted to go to dinner to talk after he got off work. So I went, more curious than anything. Well guess who has figured out he's going to be a dad? Reality really hit him when he finally saw me also. I thought that was pretty funny. So anyways, we're sitting there eating and actually talking like civil adults should. He finally got up enough courage to have a grown up conversation with me about the baby. At certain times he was pretty entertaining with all of his questions. All in all it was a decent dinner that we had. I told him what my expectations are, what my concerns are. He was actually open to hear everything without flipping out about any of it.

Now with all that said.....things did go south. when we were walking out he said to me I have something I need to say and you may not like it. He is going to have a peturnity test done because his girlfriend wants to make sure this baby is his. At first my reaction was pissed because how dare he. But then I thought about it and said.....go ahead spend your money because all your going to do is waste anywhere from 250.00 to 500.00 bucks on your little boy. If that's what he needs to do then I'm fine with it. I don't like that part that his girlfriend wants him to do it, but whatever right. I'm not going to lose sleep over it. I know for a fact that he is my baby's father....I don't need a test to prove it. But if this is what he needs to make his mind clear that this is his child then so be it. This way he can't come back in a year or later on and say he's not the dad. This way every dought in his mind can be put to rest.

So those are the pains that I've had today.....I'm pretty sure I'll some other pain tomorrow. If so I'll let you all know.