01-4-2009 - done being prego and frustrated

My mood while writing this blog: done

This is me whinning,bitching,moaning,complaining......

I am sooooo over being pregnant. I want him out already. I go for my non stress test tomorrow and hopefully they will admit me to induce. I've done great with all the added stress over the past few months, now I've made it to April and I'm DONE!!!!!! I'm wishing that something will show up tomorrow/later today that will make them want to admit me. I'm full term now and I really don't want to be forced to go the full 40 weeks----that will drive me CRAZY.

I just want everything to go back to my normal self. I'm tired of wearing the same 3 pairs of pants. It's very slim pickens on what shirts I wear also. My bra's drive me crazy, so half the time I don't even wear one. I have no urge what so ever to get all done up, so it's ponytail and headbands for me....and as for makeup, what's that. I can't fit behind my wheel anymore so I don't drive like I use to. Sitting sucks, laying down gets so uncomfortable, standing only puts pressure on my back and legs----oh and I can't forget about my lovely sciatic nerve, I'm just over that in general. So tired of not being able to just bend down and pick something up, that went out the door weeks ago. Can't handle another person saying----you STILL haven't had it yet. Oh the other thing that is really driving me insane, everyone under the sun telling me----make sure you call me when you go in labor. Yes I will call the people who really need to know and these people are the ones who will be there, but seriously why do I need to call the waitress where me and my dad go for lunch or the lady across the street who I don't even know her name. I get that people get in these crazy states of mind when it gets closer, but come on now.

I really have tried my best not to be the cranky prenant lady.........

But I am just done so everything is starting to get to me this week. I don't like the mood that I've been in for the past couple of days. I know I'm driving my dad nuts, all he's trying to do is make me feel better about myself but I just snap his head off everytime he speaks to me. My mom just sends me over the edge in 2.5 seconds everyday, so I've been barking loudly at her. I feel so bad after but it just flies out of my mouth and I can't help it.

I just want my little guy out. He's been in there long enough. He needs to get a move on. His head has been in place for over a month now but I'm STILL suck at just 1cm. Haven't thinned out at all----nothing. Still plugged up (putting that nicely). Haven't had any false labor or BH contractions at all----nothing. I really need him just to make his way into the world because I don't know how much longer I can take this.