06-4-2009 - 39 Week appointment

My mood while writing this blog: good

Hi there ladies. Hope everyone had themselves a pretty good weekend. So today I get to go for another NST and then my 39 week appointment. My little man is doing just fine. Moving and kicking the crap out of me. I know I've done my share of whinning about him moving around inside, but now that I'm getting so close I think I'm going to miss all of his movements. I've gottin so use to him being in my belly. I know it will be ok because he'll be out and then I get to hold and love him. But for the past 9 months he's been just mine, I haven't had to share him with anyone. I know that sounds selfish but it's true. Nobody else has had the chance to be reminded every minute of everyday that there is a little tiny person growing inside me. Yes, there has been a few that have felt him kick and lately a few have even seen him moving. But this whole time he's been mine and mine alone....no sharing with anyone.Which is completely not me, I'm not a selfish person by nature. I am the most non--selfish person, but not now.

So I have decided just to enjoy these last few days or weeks depending on how he does. I can honestly say as most of you know already...I have had my days about just being done and wanting him out. But now I'm just going to take it day by day from here on out. He will make his entrance into the world when he's good and ready. I would have definately never have believed someone if they told me how I would feel at the end. This whole pregancy has been such an emotional rollercoaster for me. But I'm doing very good on just moving forward, looking at what's to come, trying my hardest not to dwell on things I can't change. So now I'm going to do my best to do what's good for me and my little guy.

Crossing my fingers on todays appointments. My doctor will have two sets of my NST results to go over and then my normal appointment is right after my NST today. So I'll find out around 4ish if everything is ok or if she's going to want to admit me. I will have another cervical done today, so maybe I'll finally find out if I've dialated more than just 1 like I've been for the past 3 weeks. I do for sure he has dropped down more. I woke up yesturday and was able to actually see my feet--that was a big deal because I haven't seen them for about 2 months now.lol

So congrats to all of you on your new arrivals and to the mommies to be good luck. And to all have a great day.