20-4-2009 - An entirely new life

My mood while writing this blog: Amazed at myself

Hello to all my peeps. I want to thank each of you for all your kind words. I am just amazed at all of my family, friends, and all of you out here. And believe me I normally don't get amazed that often.lol

Anywho, here's a little on what's been going on since I got home on friday. It's a little long so srry in advance.

Friday- I was just exhausted from everything...from the hospital too coming home, that day is a little bit foggy to me--gotta love the drugs sometimes.lol

Saturday-Oh boy....that was interesting. It was the first day of being completely alone with Evan for the whole day and night. It was a bit scarey. Evan had a ruff day and night. Nothing too bad or serious to be worried about. He had woke up around 9ish in the morning and my dad fed him and then Steve came over took us shopping and to do a couple errands, he left around 1ish. Then my dad left with his friend for the weekend--they had already had these plans for a couple of weeks. Well this is when the fun began. From 2pm until 10:30am sunday morning, Evan would not goto sleep... I tried everything I could imagine and nothing. He would take 5mins here and 5 mins there, but that was it. I was honestly going crazy...I needed to sleep and couldn't.

Sunday- Steve's mom called around 11:30am and asked if it was ok to come over because she was going thru Evan withdraws. I explained to her about neither of us getting any sleep and how he had just fallen asleep about an hour before she called. She said she understood and that she'd call and check on me later. No biggie, right. I go back to sleep and next thing I know it's 1:30p and she's calling again to say she's coming over because she just can't wait to see him. Geeze lady let us get some sleep already. Her and her husband get to my house around 2:30ish, luckly my dad ended up coming home early so he basically entertained them. Evan woke up and of course he played right into everyones hand, like nothing had happen the day before.lol They finally leave after about 3 hours. My dad and his little boy spent the rest of the day together....he had cut his weekend short because "his little boy needed him", I personally think it's because he couldn't stay away.lol

Monday- Well yesturday was bad. Not with Evan with me. I am completely hurting...like as in tears hurting. My milk has come in so my boobs are swollen and leaking. When I say swollen I mean GIGANTIC..OMG!!!! Now I knew they were going to hurt somewhat or a little bit painful, but WOW...that's all I can say. Another thing is my back is killing me. I feel sooooo bad because it hurts to pick up Evan. The pain is in the middle of my back and it keeps getting more and more painful. Nothing works either, not my drugs that they gave me, not sitting or laying down. I have this incredible headache from hell that won't go away. It's like stuck right above my eyebrows in the center of my forehead. If it wasn't for my dad, I have no clue how I'd be able to take care of Evan with my back the way it is and this headache. Oh and I can't forget about my incission....when I get up from sitting or laying down it feels like I'm stretching it open...so that's painful by itself. But I expected that to hurt. I almost forgot, this started on friday. My legs and feet are swollen from the 4 bags of antibiotics they gave me in the hospital. My feet actually jiggle when I walk..that's how much water I still have in my body. Shoes do not go on my feet. I want to just take a needle and poke them so the water will just come out. I have had them elevated for the past 4 days and they aren't going down at all. It's starting to worry me a little.

Tuesday- So now we're onto tuesday and it's 2:30 in the morning here, I'm sitting here with my back still killing me, headache still here, dog that just threw up...lovely, baby that is downstairs with his papa because his mom can't carry him up or down the stairs without crying, boobs leaking, and I'm wide awake. I should be sleeping but I can't because my perscriptions are starting to wear off and it's not time to take more. My feet and legs are still swollen bad. But later on this morning Evan has his first Peds appointment. I'm actually a little excited about that. And then tomorrow I have my post appoitment with my doctors. Hopefully everything goes well today and tomorrow.

The funny part about all of this, is that last week I was still pregnant waiting to go in tuesday night. I can't believe a week has already gone by. This just goes to show you time does fly by without you even knowing it.