29-4-2009 - Update on my friend

My mood while writing this blog: ???? don\'t know how to feel???

Well here is the update on my friend and cousin.....

I went to the hospital yesurday afternoon. I must admit at first i really didn't want to go. I didn't want to make what had happen even worse for either of them. Plus I didn't want to upset her. Also I didn't want to feel wierd around her because of Evan. I know that sounds strange but with everything that happen who knows how she will be towards Evan or myself. But this is something that is completely terrible and she is one of my oldest friends, so I wanted her to know I am worried about her and concerned. When I got to her room I could tell immediately that it was going to be a little uncomfortable. She was laying there looking at the door and once she saw me, she turned her head towards the window and took a deep breath. I asked if it was ok for me to come in and she said yes, well once she looked at me she started to cry. I totally understood why, I hugged her and said I was sorry. I sat down and for the first 20 mins of my visit I was a little freaked out---I didn't show it but I was. All she kept doing was asking everything you could imagine about how Evan is. I answered her questions but kept it short. I tried to change the subject, but she kept going back to Evan. I stayed for about 30-40 mins.

My sister came over last night just before 9pm when I was putting Evan down. she walked in and said I need some little man time. (She's been at the hospital for the past 2 days). Once she got Evan to sleep she asked what happen when I went to the hospital, she was there but was down at the cafe. I explained how Tam was asking about Evan and that she wasn't really that happy to see me at first. Well I found out why. Keep in mind Tam was at the hospital right after I had Evan so she saw was one of the first people to hold him, so she knew how long he was and what he weighed. Come to find out her little girl was exactly the same as Evan....7lbs 6oz 21 inches blonde hair. So with this whole situation being so sensitive to her right now that's why she was crying. I totally get why...it's completely understandable.

As for how her kidneys are doing...I guess the hospital has the infection under control becuase it's not such a major concern right now. Sometime today she has to have a D-n-C done......she doesn't understand why. This is wha makes everyone so upset with her. When it comes to anything to do with female issues or problems she doesn't understand why they can lead to serious health problems. In other words to put it nicely----she is 37 going on 38 years old and has NEVER seen a Gyno. Going to anytype of doctor is something that she doesn't believe in. So in a way we all can understand why she "didn't know" that she was pregnant. Not that that makes it better or anything. They had the choice of either having a funeral or having her creamated (sp????), they have decided on creamation. Quote from her, "this way I can have her with me at all times".

Well that's the update on this terrible situation. All I can hope for is that both of these two will beable to get through this. My prayers have gone out for them for a loss that they weren't aware of.

I'd like to thank those of you who commented on my first blog about what had happen.