26-5-2009 - Amused to some degree

My mood while writing this blog: good

Hello everyone. It's been a couple days since I've given an update. First off, Evan is doing better...still has his breathing issue but it's definately not like it was,thank goodness. Time is flying bye soo quickly, he's 6 weeks old. My little guy has changed so much it amazes me. He's focusing in on things and is putting faces with voices, that's just awesome to me. The little things that we take for granted are being seen thru a babies eyes, it just amazes me. My little Piggy is weighing in at 11lbs. and 22 inches long. Last week he had two days with craddle cap....I so got rid of that bye brushing his little head. The sad part is he lost his hair on the top of his head, so now he's sportin an old man's hair style....my poor little 1/2 bald boy. It's growing back so now it's peach fuse on the top. His hair color is changing also, he had red hair like I did when I was a baby, but this week it's turning a brownish color. He's finally got some eyebrows, which looks funny because everyone is used to his eyebrows being so light you couldn't see them.

Steve had Evan over the weekend. He picked him up on Saturday and I went to get him on Monday evening. It was really strange to have him gone for 2 days. It was weird because I could do what I wanted, come and go as I pleased. I did go out sunday night, it was suppose to be my big night out...it soo wasn't. I missed little man to much, I couldn't completely enjoy myself. On one hand it was fun but then on the other hand I kept checking my phone to see if Steve was trying to get a hold of me for something. I'm trying my hardest not to be "that worry wart parent" or "crazy psycho mom" but damn it's hard. I need to get used to Evan going to Steve's.....considering this is how it's going to be for the next 15 years at least. So anyways when I picked up little man I guess he heard my voice and started smiling and laughing. That made my day, I was wondering the whole time how he was going to be once I picked him up. Steve made me feel so good about being a mom. From what he said Evan was fussy all day, both Steve and Bev couldn't get Evan to settle down. Evan wouldn't take a bottle, they couldn't get him to sleep. But then once I got there and did my whole mommy thing....kisses,hugs and talking to him, he was fine. I fed him a bottle which I guess he didn't finish a whole bottle all weekend then burped and changed him. While we were talking Evan grabbed my finger and fell alseep. Steve was completely amazed at how easy it was for me, he was also amazed at how Evan calmed down once he heard my voice and was in my arms. That made my day and all I could tell Steve was I'm his mommy and he knows that. Steve also made the comment on how hard and tireing it is to take care of him. My answer to him was, well welcome to my world. Bev asked how I do it, I just laughed.

They have had two nights in a row and think being "parents" is the hardest thing to do. I asked both of them what did you think, did you think it was going to be like the last time when Evan stayed the night...they both thought it was. I'm not saying in anyway that I'm great at this whole mom thing because I'm so not. I'm still learning, but I did like hearing finally what a good job I'm doing. Honestly I was chuckling to myself the whole time, I did find it funny in a way. All I kept thinking while I was there was HA!