31-8-2008 - moodswings

My mood while writing this blog: blah

So I have been incredibly unpleasant lately,So unpleasant that I can barely stand myself. Im usually a pleasant person on a day to day basis and I have been so mean to my boyfriend.I'll pretty much pick on him or give him attitude about every little thing. One minute im happy and smiling then crying then before I know it im freaking out on him. Yesterday I just bursted out in tears for no known reason.I get so frustrated so easily.I even has a dream that I was beating the crap out of my boyfriend.Pregnancy hormones are killin me ladies.Konnor has been so active lately,right now hes kicking me=)My boyfriend felt him kick again yesterday. Konnor kicks pretty much all day and at night he goes crazy in my tummy and even wakes me up with all the kicking he does.I'm happy hes so active it is so reassuring.Oh so Last time I went to my Ob she looked alot bigger in the tummy area , I really thought she was pregnant, but I didnt feel it was my place to ask such a question especially if she wasnt so i kept to myself.I remember her telling me back when i was 10 weeks her and her hubby were trying to conceive .so the other day I indeed found out she expecting.Shes due december 8th, which means shes not going to be able to deliver my baby=(That kinda bumbed me out bc i really enjoyed her as a doctor and was looking forward to her being apart of the delivery.i wonder when shes planning on telling me as a pacient i deserve to know whats goin on with whos delivering konnor. I wonder whats going to happen now? It has been on my mind lately.Im happy for her but feeling kind of selfish bc i dont want a different oB.My mother and Me checked out the hall were I want to have my baby shower and its very nice and affordable.So my mom booked it for November 2nd=)Im so excited.My aunt me and my mom have been working so hard on the centerpeices for the shower.For my table we made a huge diaper cake its so amazing and was low in cost. For the other guest table we made a smaller one layer diaper cake.Im going to put batterys in my digital camera and post it on here.I went on oriental trading.com and they have such cute things i can order for my shower and it is cheap.check the site out they have table ware,games,favorss,banners,so much more cute stuff.Ok so im done blabbing about stupid stuff have a great week everyone