16-7-2009 - oh dear...=[

My mood while writing this blog: sad

Then my dad pulled me aside and told me that he was worried about my uncle(who has been like a second dad to me my whole life). I asked why and he told me that a few days ago he had some complications(which i knew NOTHING about) and had to go to the hospital. Apparently while he was there they found some lesions(sp?)

on his liver and somewhere else(i can't remember where else my dad said) & they're almost positive it's cancer. I brought up that my uncle has been a drinker and smoker his whole life and asked my dad if he thought that caused it. Now, being a smoker himself, my dad disagreed and got upset with me for saying that it was the drinking/smoking that caused this and said "People who don't smoke/drink can get cancer too you know." I just stared at him. I wanted to say so bad that he was in denial, but at the same time i felt so scared/sad. I haven't lost anyone so close to me yet, and i don't know exactly how i will react if/when i do. I'm just so worried for him, he really is amazing. Can anyone tell me what i'm up for as far as how long he has/ if he will survive? I can see him being the kind of person that won't want to do chemo/anything else to help.I don't know much about cancer and how they try to help it but i just hope he is okay.

On the other hand, Krys is doing great. Except for it's 5 in the morning and i've been up since about 4 trying to get him back to sleep. He just woke up and wanted to play....wierd...he's never done it before.

I finally got a job!(and a new car) I work with Shaynes mom at a bottle packaging company, and will have a good neighbor/friend of mine watch krys when neither of us are home.It's hard getting a sitter because shayne doesnt have set hours, so his schedule is all over the place.Which sucks.It's going to be so hard for me to leave krystian omg. I start this coming monday, and im worried im going to cry the first day on the job.lol.

We had a scare the other day when krys FELL out of his swing!! Me and shayne were sitting on the couch and all of a sudden he tried to roll over and rolled out of the swing.He is way under the weight limit for the swing and he was buckled in! We brought him to the ER because he hit his head on the leg of the swing on the floor when he landed, but he is fine(this all happened on sunday). I wanted to call the swing company but i never got the chance. Ive been so busy lately.

Thanks for reading and i hope everyone is doing great!

btw, krystian turned 6 months old last night at 9:03pm!!!

yay he's so big!

27inches & 18lbs.

but he still doesnt seem interested in eating off of a baby spoon....only big people spoons.

he tried carrots last night and liked them(at least, he didnt spit them out)lol.

and still no teeth. he's been drooling excessively since 2 months old and i just want them to come in already lol.