08-6-2008 - 2nd Doc. Apt. Part 1

My mood while writing this blog: Mad

May 8th 2008

So I just got back from my second doctors visit and I am not happy at all. Where i go to the doc. there is two different offices in two close towns about 15 minutes apart...Well the lady told my one town, but I was supposed to go to the other....But The one that i drove to me took me anyway. I was supposed to get 2 papsmear tests done because my first papsmear came back abnormal...

(There is a possibility I could have HPV... And that could lead to cervical cancer,..but they will not know for sure until after the baby is here because they have to give me a biopsy...)

Well anyways....When i went to this doctor, they did not have the same plan for me...I went in, did a pee sample...got weighed....Then the doc tried to hear for the heart beat...he trying for 1 woping minute...Im not kidding...only 1 minute...and said well Im going to have to have you come back tomorrow because the ultrasound tech will get mad if we give her another customer today since she has had so many...

And he says he thinks i am not as far along as i think....But the period they are currently goin on is the one that i told them was wierd for me...the normal one was about a week and a half before the weird one...So if my due date is wrong...It should say that i am further along....not less further along. So anyways...we were at the doctor for a woping 5 minutes...and what makes me even more upset is that my boyfriend took a whole days pay today to come see or hear something and he did get to...he wasnt upset,...but i am.

Tomorrow i am schedualed to get a vaginal ultrasound...since he doesnt think i am as far along....

When i went into the car i just started crying because it seems like since i could remember....since i was really really little...I always get my hopes up....It just seems anytime i have really really wanted something in my life...It doesnt happen the way i want it to.

Tomorrow when i go, it wouldnt be surprise me if they told me that i wasnt even pregnant...Which i know i am and stuff with all the symptoms...but just saying these are the kinds of things that happen to me.