07-11-2008 - Any day now would be WONDERFUL...

My mood while writing this blog: bored

37 Weeks and 3 days now... And i am sooo ready. Everyone in my family/Mikes family is swearing they think ill go early, like by next week this time...but i just dont see it... I havent had anything to show that I am progressing at all! Ive been checked three times now, and just this last one she said, "still about the same, not quite 1 cm"... I know it doesnt matter cause I could go into labor not being dialated at all, but i just want something to happen to show my body is doing what is should be. Like I also havent lost my mucus plug, and I know this is common too, but i just want to loose it... When i go to the bathroom i check every single time hoping to see it, and nothing! arg! I just feel like im going to be pregnant for an eternity. Im really ready to be able to be more comfortable. The weird thing is I actually am not ready. Like I am in my mind, but house wise, no. Our house is a wreck right now...and i wake up everyday saying im going to clean it, but i never do... I have tons of laundry to do and put away, including the babys first newborn stuff. I have to wash his crib sheets and all that too. Havent sterilized anything either. The babys room is finished now, all except for a 8" peice of chair rail molding thats missing bc of my bad measuring...lol, woops. But thats no big deal. However, there is alot of trash in the babys room from my last baby shower, we need to take it out and burn it, because we dont have trash service, we live in the country anyways so thats no big deal. And I have some of the stuff for the hospital bag, but its not packed completely. So as I am complaining that i want this baby "out of ma belllay" (haha), I really am not completely ready. I think the reason ive been putting everything off is because I still feel like I have loads of time, since I havent had any progression. Idk, I just hope something different happens soon, I want to know that my body can do what it is supposed to when it comes to labor!

PS... Im really starting to get tired of these weekly Nonstress tests, I have to usually sit in the waiting room for like an hour before they even call me back...then the test is only 20 minutes so thats no biggie... last week tho, I was called back like as soon as I came in, and then when the lady took the results to get them approved by the doc, i was sitting in the room for 45 minutes before walking out to the office area because i thought i was forgotten about or there was something wrong with the test. Ended up their was an emergency and they had to rush a lady to labor and delivery, but the lady that was administering the test was supposed to peak in and tell me so i knew what was taking forever. I just ended up sitting in the waiting room for another 30 minutes waiting to be let go home, and i was ok with that cuz i understood the emergency situation by then. But still, I hate having to drive 30 minutes to do all this... Im not worried about the baby, and I guess i doesnt kill me since i know it is the best thing with Gestational Diebities and all, but i swear i dont really even have GD. My numbers are NEVER high...the highest i have had is like 131...and the highest they are supposed to be is 120. So i dont believe these fools...haha. lol... Ok ima get off here before i run outa room... Talk to you ladies later and good luck to all the upcoming deliveries!