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| 13-4-2008 - 19 and pregnant | My mood while writing this blog:confused |
hey all, my name is rockelle and i am thirty weeks pregnant today. i have been a member of this site for a while and i think this site has helped in so many ways. I was about 12 weeks when i first found out that i was pregnant. I was currently living down in carrollton, ga with my bf/bd when i started experiencing the symptoms of pregnancy and missing my period. I became extremely sick til i never got out of bed to eat, was using the restroom frequently and became very lazy. I can still remember the back and abdominal pain i experienced. I use to feel as if i were going to faint when i showered in the hot steamed bathroom and I can remember trying to work out with sore boobs because my bf told me i was gettin fat. I cramped so bad that day but never took a pt until i came home. I found out the day before thanksgiving and at the time had no job, no car, and didnt know how i was going to support my child. Well now im a little better off, im more accepting of the fact that im about to have a child and cant believe that i thought of aborting Jayden because of my mistakes. Being pregnant definitely has its pros and its cons and alotta people were disappointed adn upset that i got pregnant with no job and having to leave school for a semester isnt what i want to do but i think its the best thing for me and baby until i can adjust to being a mommy. I was thinking of just working and spending time with Jayden. I thank God for my childs father though, although we argue alot and cant stand each other, we are still together workin through this and i love him more now than i have ever before because we have been through so much with both sides of the family feeling like we cant handle the responsibility of a child. We are both working and still going to school and were looking for a place to stay so that we will be able to raise our son together. I just feel blessed to be carrying my little miracle and cant wait to meet him. I never thought that i would fall under a statistic in the world being pregnant, young, and unmarried, but im happy with that and will work through it all with a smile on my face for my son. Theres been so much going on during my pregnancy i feel like its by Gods grace that my son is still growing and healthy inside of me. I had a hard time with eating in the beginning when i was thinking of aborting my son and i now believe that i was trying to intentionally miscarry because the stress was taking over me and i had become emotionally unstable. I stil have some break downs but nothing like that, i just find myself crying out of the blue. Im just ready for it to be over with so i can get back to playing sports and having fun with my son and working on bettering the relationship with his father. Being pregnant at 19 isnt bad at all it just depends on the person and whether or not their willing to handle the baggage that will trail behind the title. Me, i was willing and ready, im stronger than i was yesterday, i thank God for everyday that i feel my son move and i cant wait to see my baby for the first time, now i could just get over being scared of labor lol
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