25-11-2008 - 40 weeks midwife app

My mood while writing this blog: tiered, hurting

me again ladies.

Ok so gets to see my midwife, blood pressure fine, urine fine babys heart beat fine (i fink she said 160 maybe 159)???

Then she said she wanted to do a internal cos of what iv been experiencing etc (pains stopping and starting)

FUCK me did it hurt (sorry for language) i was sayin no no no!!! my mum was holdn onto me.

She said she had toched Tillys head and wanted to do the sweep but i jus couldnt do it so now im feeling angry with myself!!!

she said that she is ready to come and that of by any chance im still pregnant next tuesday she is def doing the sweep as she dosent want me bein induced (which is good i spose)

i came out and had such a good cry my mum cried with me bless her and i said im so scared!!! my mum said not to worry and she is gonna be with me every step of the way and we will have all the pain killers there is to offer.

We then went to a big xmas shop near me and i cheered myself up by gettin sum big fluffy butterflies and angels as xmas decs that im gonna have hangin from my ceiling as my xmas tree is decorated in pink and girly for my little girly!

Since iv been home tho i have such a bad belly ache and back ache i had regular pains every 7-8 mins for about a hour which have since stopped. I had a nice hot bath and now im relaxing as im hurting!!!!

Hopefully sum time soon i jus feel so achy!!!

Love to all xxx