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10-4-2009 - uh-oh... getting a lil sad

My mood while writing this blog:
waiting for jacob

Well most of you know that i had started talking to this guy well everything went great and nothgin bad happend except i decided i just dont trust men at all anymore i have been thru some serious changes in the past 7 mnths and even though brandon is a nice guy i just dont trust his sincerity and its all thanx to my ex -bf and my baby daddy and i will explain my baby daddy when we first met took me out to dinner paid for everything even in the mornings would take me out to breakfast and now look at him ... i havent talked to him since feb and he could careless about me or what im goin thru then my ex -bf tells me oh lets get back together in jan and then so for 3 weeks had me thinking wow everything is gonna be ok and then BAM he breaks up with me and honestly that hurt me more than my baby daddy being an ass so all in all i just feel like in the beginning they are nice but in the end they are not and plus i just really dont see any guy just coming around rignt now i mean when baby jacob gets here my body is gonna be sore and deff out of commission and im gonna be giving all the energy i do have to him i will not have anytime for a relationship and im ok with that im just being realistic its like i have 3 mnths and maybe a lil less if i give birth early so to make a long story short i have pulled away from brandon we are friends and hopefully a few months after my baby boy is here if he is still around i could consider some type of normal relationship but im pregnant and getting bigger everyday and the reason i say im getting sad is because i do love my son and i cant wait to hold him in my arms but i have another 3 mnths till that day comes and honestly im just ready to start me mommy life i want to get this damn show on the road im bored to death and my back hurts and complain complain complain so today im gettin a lil sad is bcuz right now my life is at a total stand still and im not liking it one bit even though i know that once i have my baby and i get into the swing of things my happy go lucky life and personality not to mention my band and shows will all be back in my life and i will continue doing me but until that time i just feel soooo out of place and almost worthless eeeeewwwwwww

7 Comments on uh-oh... getting a lil sad

Jmajor-payne - Saturday, 11 Apr
U will never be worthless know that and I know its hard to say but don't let past relationships ruin your present and future its not healthy and u deserve better and Brandon almost sounds like that better, and if he willing he will wait for u so GOOD LUCK and u are always in my thoughts!!! STAY STRONG

mizzgraham - Saturday, 11 Apr
You seem like a beautiful individual. Right now life is going to be full of emotional rollercoasters (I should know). Your a strong woman, and I'm sure there are plenty of good men just waiting to meet someone like you. Be patient and let God worry about that, cause he'll send someone just as beautiful as you. In the meantime you're busy making a baby; enjoy it and focus on that baby boy and your talents.

babyboybump - Saturday, 11 Apr
one thing, ur NOT worthless, ur a talented, beautiful young women and uv got EVERTYHING to liv for ESPECIALLY ur lil son! omg plz dont feel like this! i no u cant help it and the preggo hormones dont help either but u just gotta look on the brite side ov things, if u cant bring urself to trust men in that way u gota let it go for a while, be u, think bout ur baby, buy him stuff, weve all kissed our fair share ov frogs in the past, but the rite ones gona com along wen u l east expect him too, im sure ov that honey! just relax and take care!!! xX

klo0426 - Friday, 10 Apr
I hear everything your saying. My advice would be just consintrate on you right now. If things are meant to be with you and Brandon then that will work itself out afterwards. Guys can definately be asses we all know this, so why consume yourself with another one while your pregnant. Your little man inside needs his mommies full attention. I think alot of you being bored is because you love your band sooooo much and can't do it right now. You'll find something to fill your time between now and then. In the mean time stay true to yourself and your little guy.

larryslady - Friday, 10 Apr
If we live from our past we will destroy our future. That is speaking from experience. Sometimes you have t o make a man make his own mistakes and as long as you know that you have done everything in your power to make YOU happy that's all that matters. Maybe right now is not the time for a man, but you also don't want to miss outon yor blessing, God sends people in your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime and they make that choice. But you have to be the only one that makes that choice about yourself. If I had let my past direct my futre I would be single and alone. Trust me! So in the end no one makes that choice but Y-O-U-!!

dinahmite425 - Friday, 10 Apr
as long as you alow waht someone has done to you in the past to predict your future they are still winning and have all the power... im not saying make this new guy your man but allow him to make his own mistakes not take on the mistakes of someone else!! thats not fair to you or him, just from him being interested in a person who is pregnant my someone else is a bold statement dont knck him down.. just keep him around and learn each other more but never let someone elses actions keep your happiness at bay in the future!!!

~mama J~ - Friday, 10 Apr
The things we compromize for our babies. I completly understand how you feel. You are beautiful tho and it is ok for you to have all of these mixed emotions. I honestly dont know how you do it. You are so amazind and so strong. I am married and can barely go thru the pregnancy let alone having another child. I look at you like wonder mom. And my husband duz not find my preggo sillouette (or attitude) attractive in the least bit. He doesnt even want to have sex or anything which duznt really bother me. He just gets weird about it and here you are having some guy wanting to be with you and your beautiful baby bump. Dont second guess yourself tho. You need to feel as comfortable as possible through this time in your life and nobody know what is best for you .....except for you!! Love yourself and that baby and stay strong mommy. You will make it. I envy you!!!!

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