13-5-2008 - Here's what's happening with me.

My mood while writing this blog: Okay

CD3 now. While I'm not 'trying' anymore, I am still hoping to fall pregnant, but I'm just leaving it in God's hands. AF has been reasonably heavy so far, but that's nothing unusual. What is a bit unusual, though, is that the cramping hasn't been as painful as usual, which is a good thing.

Last cycle was 24 days long, so I think that my cycles have finally gotten themselves regulated now since my m/c, but we will see how long this cycle lasts for. Would be great if AF decided to lengthen herself to the typical 28 day cycle, but I don't think she will do that.

Michael has been really great to me the past couple of days. Since Sunday night when my sister made me cry, he's been really showing his affection a lot more and it's made me feel so special and I love it. While my sister loves me and is looking out for me and wanted to voice her opinion on Michael and I wanting to start a family, she didn't need to do it in front of my mother and our neighbour up the road. My sister's 31, has a 6 year old girl (who I love with all my heart), and she was pretty much telling me that while I'm at this age I should be out having fun - her idea of fun is getting drunk and partying, which Michael and I aren't into. I feel like an idiot sometimes because I think to myself that I shouldn't really be focusing on wanting to start a family at this age, but I don't want to wait either.

My mum is 57 this year, and my dad is 53 this year; so they aren't getting any younger and I'd love for them to see my children grow up while they still have a decent amount of energy to play and spend time with them. I also figure that if we're at least 'trying' at this age, if I, or Michael, have any problems with our bodies when it comes to TTC, we can find it out earlier rather than later giving us a better chance at having a family. I feel like I am looking at the choice of motherhood/parenthood maturely, but my sister thinks that I just want to have a baby cos my friends are, which isn't true. While 2 of my friends have a baby, and one of my friends is about 23 weeks pregnant, it may seem like that's the reason that I want a baby, but that isn't the case. My friends having children at this age, (even though all 3 of my friends' pregnancies were unplanned), has just made me realise that it can be done, and with enough family support, Michael and I can be parents at this age. Age is just a number; it (usually) doesn't define one's maturity level.

I understand that once you have children it makes it harder on you financially, and that it will be harder to travel, but I believe that teaching your children right from wrong, watching them grow and learn new things, seeing them embrace the good things and battle the hard things in life is much more rewarding. Having children young means that by the time they move out of home and start their own lives and families, we will still be young enough to travel and see the world anyway, and we can still be saving up for our retirement and whatnot.

I guess the age that you want to become a parent varies from person to person, but I don't think that wanting to be young/teen parents should be discouraged if it has been discussed in depth and the decision has been made maturely.