07-8-2009 - So so so depressing.

My mood while writing this blog: sad

One would think now is the time to be happy! Any other year, and I would have been. Now I am just expecting the worst. I cannot wait until this year is OVER, and I thank GOD my baby will be born in 2010.

First my dh grandmother passed away in February, of a very short and horrible battle with leukemia. 3 weeks later my uncle died at work of a massive heart attack, he was only 56. My grandfather is losing his battle with cancer and he is lucky to have a year left. My m-i-l's house caught on fire, and she is so distraught over everything, she is moving out of state.

One of my daughters friends lost her baby, full term in July. My step-dad had a heart attack this past Monday. He was only 42. Thank God he was working at a hospital when it happened, otherwise they said he would have passed away.

Wednesday, a friend of our family found out at 7 months pg, her baby has died. His funeral is saturday. And....my 11 yr old dog died wednesday night. We spent all day yesterday in 90 degree heat digging a freakin' 6 ft hole to bury his big ol' body.

My husband wants to move. Not sure where to, because it's not like we can run from the inevitable. It has just been a bad year, bad timing, bad everything. I go to the dr Monday for my 2nd prenatal appt, hoping for the best, expecting the worst. I pray we find some happiness despite so much sadness.