14-8-2008 - C-section!!

My mood while writing this blog: Anxious/Scared/Worried/Excited

I have to get up at 4 in the morning so I can take a shower and get ready to head to the hospital. We HAVE to be there at 5 AM so they can get me ready for my c-section. Does it really need to take 2 hrs to prep someone? Weird. The section isn't supposed to start until 7:30. Oh well. All I know is that I'm super anxious. To be honest with you I don't feel like communicating with the outside world right now because my heart is just racing and I got all these things going on inside my brain.

Brett keeps telling me to relax, it's going to be fine. It's not gonna be bad like last time, it's gonna be quick and done with. I know he's right but there's still that anxiety there of OMG I'm having surgery!! I'm getting that spinal, what if I freak and they knock me out and I miss the birth of my child like last time, or I get sick again. I'm very much traumatized because of last time. I can't help but to feel the way I do. I just hope she's ok and there's no problems or complications. I know she's doing alright as of right now cause she's beating the crap out of me at this very moment. How the heck am I gonna sleep tonight? I have to get to bed soon because like I said we gotta be up early....

Wish us luck. The next time you guys hear from me she will be here!!

XOXOXO