02-5-2008 - she's measuring 'small' ??

My mood while writing this blog: Nervous & Worried

{sigh} can I start out by saying I have one hell of a headache?!

ok so wifey appt today.. of course I arrived about 15 minutes early.. they took their time calling me back yadda yadda yadda ANYWHO.................. I go thru the normal petty stuff.. pee, weight,blood pressure which are fine, good, I gained 1lb(160) and good. lil nurse chick puts me in a room and tells me the wifey will be right in. ok

roughly 15 minutes later, incomes wifey.. shes like oh ur not ready.... lil nurse chick didnt tell me to get undressed from the waist down.. so I'm already 'tudey about that cause I dont want the wifey to leave and come back 15 minuites later AGAIN. So I tell wifey to come back in 2 seconds.. she came back in 10 mins.

she goes to check Kaidyns heartbeat (which is fine) and my cervix ;shes like ' ur not ready to deliver this baby anytime soon'. ok.. I'm cool with that cause I know I could dilate at any given moment so my feelings arent shattered too bad(plus I wasnt trying to get hopes up anyways), BUT then she goes to measure my tummy and she says'the baby's small'... I'm like HUH?! in my mind I'm thinking ok this is the 1st Im hearing this... so shes like u dont drink, smoke or do any illegal drugs do u?? again I'm like HUH?! of course I'm like NO. so she proceeds with telling me about another patient whos bulemic (damn I know I murdered the spelling on that one) and how this chick's baby had all kinds of issues cause the chick had only gained 1lb during her entire pregnancy. so she asks me if I'm eating healthy (as if I'm starving myself and my baby,ok I know she has to ask, but hell look at my chart.. look at what weight I started out at and look at me now) at this point Im like WTF... Im like look I eat healthy AND Im eating everything in sight! So.. shes like ok well it could be because ur small to begin with (hmm shouldnt she have kept all that other 'ish to herself rather than scaring the crap outta me??) shes like we're going to set u up for a U/S ASAP just to check on the baby's size.

At this point.. I'm freakin out. I mean Im down to the wire and now ur saying somethings wrong with my babys size?? WTH... and in an undercover (or so she thought) kinda way ur asking me if Im starving my baby! Im the same size I was when I carried my son and he weighed 7lbs 3.5oz.. my daughter I gained 65lbs and she weighed 7lbs 1.5 oz.

AM I TRIPPIN THE PHUCK OUT HERE OR SOMETHING? I mean really if I am.. tell me so I can bring it down a few knotches cause right now.. I'm in straight panic mode and ever since that appt my afternoons been one big unhappy event.