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lindasaylou
	Age: 25 Country: United States Province/region: Oklahoma City: the 405 Partner: Husband Timmy Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Business Owner
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29-12-2008 - Wrong Impression

My mood while writing this blog:
Ok

Well apparently I'm giving off some bad impressions to everyone. Just to clear it all up I'm very excited that I may be given the chance to try pregnancy another go around. I am sad that I'm going to have to start over because I would be in week 25 if I had not had a miscarriage in late August. I'm scared that I could possibly have another miscarriage. Saying that makes the tears rush down my face as I type. Not trying to get pregnant isn't awful or negative that is just my way of not getting my hopes up too high which helps me stay positive. I stay up late at night so don't have to try to fall asleep and it takes all my might to get out of the bed in the morning because I feel a void within myself. Unless you've had a miscarriage you don't know what that loss feels like. You wake up one morning pregnant and go to sleep that night feeling like the life was sucked out of you, literally because the hospital didn't give any other option but, to have a D&C. I still feel like my words are going to be taken out of context even when I'm trying to plead my case. I want it to happen because it's supposed to and not because I'm stressing over it to make it happen. I wish all the women I was in week 25 with, the ones I may be joining in week 4 or 5, and the ones in TTC the best and merriest New Year possibly in their new journey's.

1 Comments on Wrong Impression

*Mommy*to*a*Miracle* - Monday, 29 Dec
i was scared to death to find out i was pregnant again(with this lil guy) and i STILL worry (at almost 35 weeks) that something will go wrong. the fear never goes away and its totally understandable. i even told my fiance that this baby might just be the only one we have cuz this whole pregnancy has been so nerve-wracking for me! its so hard mentally and physically. the constant panicking and worrying cant be healthy for us. but then again, once i see my sons face i know i will want to try to have more kids. i would love a big family i just need to find my inner strength to make it thru another 9 months. u will be just fine hun. u just need a good support system (of people who really understand u on ur worst days!) and good doctors to follow ur next pregnancy to help ease ur mind. i really hope everything works out for u :o)

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