06-9-2011 - been 4 months?!?!?!

My mood while writing this blog: tired

Wow, cannot believe its been so long since ive updated!
Things have certainly been crazy for me thats for sure.

I will try to keep this short since I have 2 little boys not really getting along at the moment.

Well im not prego and im not going to try to get pregnant for a very long time :(

As much as I would love a little one, its just not the right time anymore.

Me and my husband has been going through some things for a while now and this will make month 2 that we have been seperated :( .

Nothing to major, everything was and still is fixable, we just dont get along anymore and he wouldnt get the help I wanted him to (counceling ect. for both of us). It takes 2 to help fix all the problems.

So I moved out and am on my own with 3 kiddos :( but we are doing good and thats all that matters. I have only a few people that have supported me through this seperation and I love and thank them a bunch. I have not told hardly anyone so thats why theirs only a few people that have cared. A lot of my family that know, they do not approve of it just cause my husband had a great heart and great head on his shoulders and they are scared for me I guess.

I am a photographer and I do waitress now so I am making money, I just wish some of the negative things people say would just please keep it to themselves. its between me and him ya know. Oh well

So far the kids are fine with it. Of course the first couple weeks it was I want daddy, I want to go home, ect. ect. Mainly my 5 yr old who is daddys boy. We are 2 1/2 hours away from him so it is hard for them to see him.

He gets him every other weekend and helps me out with some things so everything seems to be working out except for the days we do argue (like today) then it makes things so much worse.

Anyhoo, been checking in to some people on here and seen some new babies born CONGRATS and seen some new BFP's CONGRATS and have seen some about to go into labor CONGRATS!!!!!! Also for all of you TTC still, baby dust to you all! Hope you all take care and ill keep blogging when I have the time!