25-1-2010 - Just a random blog, felt like writing :)

My mood while writing this blog: happy

Just got some things on my mind, and wanted to blog about, Im a huge blogger.. I was wondering if anyone knew of a blog spot or something where you write a lot of blogs.. I would do more here but I feel like this should be about my babies and all that. I was catching up and reading some blogs of everyones and am so happy that those babies are growing and the TTCers are doing alright (im crossing fingers and praying for you all)!!

Ryan will be 9 mths old in 2 days!!! goodness that boy us growing! I will have his 9mth blog up on that day! He goes to the doc on the 28th for those shots we all hate :( poor baby. Hes doing great though! I cant ever get enough of him! Yesterday we were sitting in the computer chair and I thought he was giving me a huge so I squeezed him to hug him and he BIT ME!!!! I was like OUCH RY and said it a little loud and he started crying so bad, I felt so bad after, but goodness that hurt lol.. hope he never does that again lol..

I have some good news! My family all lives up in NY and im down in SC, but last month my mom told me she wanted to move around me so I looked at a bunch of apts for her and found her a beautiful one so long story short she will be here March 24th!!! Im so happy to have her closer and help me out a little. My hubby is now back to school and working another job (not cause we need it, he just wanted the experience i guess) but hes gone all the time! Like for the next 2 wks he has work during the day (9-5) then school on monday (7-9) then tues, wed, thurs, fri and saturday he works his other job from 530-930...im like why in the world would you do that to me :( I know its all for the good, but I wont see him but in the morning and then at like 930 at night.. what the heck?!!??!? Plus im with these kids by myself.. So......I am for sure happy my mom is coming here, she might not live with me but she will help the best she can and thats all im asking for!! I see all these people get help with their kids and it just sucks, cause i have NEVER had the help, ive always do this on my own. No me and my husband always do it on our own.. We never ask for it either. My in laws have issues with never caring or wanting to see their grandchildren for some reason and they live like 20 min from me.. Oh well in the long run when they are older and hubby and I are finally able to have 'us' time we will look back and know we have always done this on our own and be proud of it and hoping our children do great in life!!!

I do have the best kids in the world tho, they are all so very healthy and cute and smart and good. I mean I have my moments with them, but I see how some other kids act and I am so glad mind dont act like that lol. My daughter will be 8 on March 20th!! We are looking forward to that b-day party! We got it all planned out a way no party has ever been lol. She loves i-carly so we are having that kind of party with like icarly games we made up, its going to be great and shes so excited! Then April is mr. ryans b-day!! Wow 1 is right around the corner! Then last is Jakes who will be 4!! His in June (7th)!

I also have been having issues with my daughter father.. its a long story, but hes been in her life since she was about 8 mths old or so and they have a great relationship, but I have issues with him, My hubby and I get along with him and im VERY close to his mother and family, but the thing is he doesnt have a job, he goes to school and just lives it up basically and the past 2 times he was suppose to get my daughter for a few days he always cancels and tells me hes broke knowing damn well his mom would help him out in a heartbeat she loves Jasmine like a love ive never seen before! So I got pissed and told him I wasnt going to ask him anymore if he wanted her for her school breaks and just let me know when your ready type deal and he got pissed and told me not to be that way and I was like no, she wants to see you, she wants to go there. What am i suppose to tell her everytime she thinks shes going and doesnt.. Im not going to tell her your broke. Then he has a facebook and he post something on there like 'one day shell be all his' there was more to it, but i forget. im like over my dead body.. so hes like it would just be better for me if i can get her in FEB. i was just like whenever your ready. I mean come on..I see pics of him always out in bars, clubs, friends having a good time, but yet he doesnt call or ever want to see her.. I told his mom that im not doing this crap with him anymore. im not feeling bad for him because hes broke or whatever, hes not broke when hes out having a good time drinking.. just bullshit if you ask me. I have never been rude to him, but I am just over it now and dont give a crap anymore. she never sees him unless im around that area and stop by to say hi.. its crap. Oh well lol theirs more to it, but way to much to type.

Other than that everything is awesome! I am so happy about my mom coming here and I cannot wait. My kids are doing awesome and hubby and I are too! Still not on any BC yet and crossing fingers we stay protected enough through condoms and pull out method and stay away from being pregnant!!! lol. even though I would like another little girl ;) hehe j/k not right now in life lol...I will be posting another blog soon enough!