28-5-2009 - No daddy at 20 week scan

My mood while writing this blog: Dissapointed

Up untill now i've always thought no matter happened between me and babys daddy he wud always wanna be involoved and be there for his baby, seems im wrong, things have gone from bad to worse lately to the point where we seem unable to have a normal conversation to eachother and we always just end up arguing and being unnessesarily spiteful to eachother, afterwards i sit and think that was so pathetic but at the time i get all upset and angry an it just comes out, he seems to think he still has a hold over me even tho we have been split for a few months now, anyway, i asked him yesterday "are you coming to the scan next friday" an he just sed "i have to work"! it doesnt bother me he wont b there for me but it bothers me that he's missin out an that he's not there for bean, he always knew wen the scan was and so does his work so nothings changed, im not gonna push him and its his choice but i cnt help feeling dissapointed, i just want us to stop arguing and be able to maintain some sort of friendship for the sake of our baby and to make this whole situation easier, i care for him alot still and it upsets me that im loosing a good friend as well, sorry im rambling now, i just needed to get it all down x