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	Age: 20 Country: england Province/region: london City: Partner: Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: student nurse
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30-7-2009 - Stressed :-(

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I think im stressed enough to go into prem labour rite now!!! Eva feel like the world is against u and its just one thing after the other goin wrong?!?? At the moment its uni. I am doing a nursing degree witht the hope of becoming a childrens nurse...this has been my dream job since i was small and it all i've eva wanted to do, i left school with few GSCEs so worked hard for 3 years to gain an NVQ in childcare which was enough for a good uni to accept me on their degree course last September, i was so happy and my family were really proud id done it. so then i fall pregnant in the middle of my 1st year - FUCK!!! well once i thought about it and spoje to a few people we decided i would finish my 1st year which finishes officially end of July and then take a year out (like a gap year) to have my baby in october then wud go back and do my last 2 years next year....SO...i have to pass my 1st year by July as this is faculty rules and if i dont pass everything by then then they will failme and i will have to re-do my 1st year. however to pass the 1st year we have to do OSCE's which r practical exams for procedures such as injections, TPR, Recovery position etc...and they sed i could not do these at 26 weeks pregnant so wud have to come bk in between having my baby and the deadline to complete this and pass my year...(hope i havent lost u)...well also to pass the 1st year i have to have completed 15 weeks on placement doin 12 hour shifts on a childrens ward and doing a load of paper work...due to bein hospitilised for a week an having a week recovery i have missed 4 weeks placement and alot of paperwork...now they r sayin i need to complete this over august and September at 8 MONTHS PREGNANT???? i dont think so somehow...i would collapse!! they are also being bitches to get in contact with and im ringing and ringin and emailing and getting no replies, im leaving millions of messages cos i really wanna get this sorted and passed my 1st year, however i just got my last assignment bk which took me soooo loong and they have failed me!!!! so now i just feel like quitting, its a massive weight on my shoulders every day and its draggin me down. i have felt so depressed for about 2 weeks now and even tho i try go about normal things and get myself sorted it seems the world is against me and i just wanna sppend a;ll day in the safety of my bed :-( been trying to ring my midwife for 4 days now and left 3 messages cos i need an important form and no1 is getting bk to me, i even went there this morning and there was no midwifes around, wot if i was in labour!?!?!? im supposed to be able to contact them at all times!!! damn it i know if i dont stop now im gonna go on and on an half of wot ive sed prob dont even makew sense but it does to me and i have nowhere else to write it :-(

6 Comments on Stressed :-(

TR-Baby2 - Thursday, 30 Jul
OMG!!! I just wanna {{{HUG}}} you right now!!! If it makes you feel ANY better (doubtful, but worth a shot, right?) my world is also CAVING IN on me, too!!! Why can't you do the OSCE's pregnant?? Once you're already a nurse you'll still have to do all that anyway, pregnant or not, right??? Something similar happened to another friend of mine, she was studying sonography, and couldn't complete 'cuz she was pregnant - wtf? - it's not like she was gonna be x-raying her damn-self, right?! Geesh!! Hell, she could have just worn one of those big heavy vests that they make you wear to deflect the rays... And, how dumb is it that they expect you to be able to do all that floor-time (12-hour shift stuff) but, not the other crap!?!? I think pregnant women need to be able to make their own choices about what is and what is not safe for them & baby!! .... Anyway, just do the best that you can - that's ALL you can do! And, hard as it is, "try" not to stress over it so much, ok?!?! Yes, it totally BLOWS, but if you can't get it ALL completed now, get it when you can ... I know it sucks and I'm SO SORRY!! As hard as it may be to believe, things WILL get better, and they WILL get easier, 'k? Take care! {{{hugz}}}

Mandy-n-Eoins-Peanut - Thursday, 30 Jul
I know you're probably thinking that if you don't do this now, you never will, that the baby is going to take over your life and your personal life will take a back seat. It's true that a baby slows you down, but it won't stop you completely. If you have to go back and start your first year over, you'll still get there in the end, won't you? Don't panic. Things have a way of working out, whether we worry about them or not. I started a college course on IT Technology when I was pregnant with my son, and had to leave. It was just too hard and stressful. But I did go back and I got my degree. You will too hun. xx

Kim-baby-2 - Thursday, 30 Jul
So sorry you are so upset and stressed. I am in my 30's and one thing I had to learn the hard way was to "plan for the unexpected." I truly beiieve things happen for a reason- even if you don't understand it at that time. Things WILL work out for you in the long run. Maybe taking this year off will be a blessing in disguise, although you may not realize it until months or even a year down the road. Right now your focus should be on your health and your babies health. Don't mean to preach to you about it but it's true. I know it's frustrating when you have a 'plan" you want your life to follow and then there are obstructions that throw your plan out of whack. You have had this dream of becoming a nurse your whole life- it is still attainable but will be put off for a year. Maybe they can give you an extension due to health problems?? You will see that 1 year will go by very quickly!!!
You are pregnant for a reason right now, so that has to be your focus. I'm confident things will work out for you in the long run. (((hugs)))

beanbump - Thursday, 30 Jul
Hey sweet, ur turn to today to be down hey :0( Reading your blog personally I think you should try and chill. At the end of the day ur baby is the most important thing at the mo. If you put too much pressure on urself you will make urself ill. If it ends up that uni has to take a back burner then so be it. You're only 20 chick, so much time ahead of you. I know it's shite but surely you would be in a better frame of mind after you've had the little one. What will be will be, I know at the end it if you have the determination you will get to where you want to be eventually. xx

fiona101 - Thursday, 30 Jul
oh no, dont be gettin stressed ! honestly i had trouble like that with uni - not the preggo thing but just them being a nightmare ! things will click into place for you - dont quit- do this for your little one and to fulfil your childhood dreams ! try to say positive xx

mommylove09 - Thursday, 30 Jul
Oh no! I can't believe that. I know its your dream but you have to think of your baby. You will accomplish your goal just not in the time frame you have hoped. That is BS about not letting you do the practical at 26 weeks! Why?
How annoying. Please don't let yourself feel down, this too shall pass and it will all work out in the end, truly.

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