01-6-2011 - Bitter Sweet <3

My mood while writing this blog: ok

Where has time gone i was sitting here reading a few of my older blogs of when emma was born it brought me back to the day she was born as i look at her she has growen so much before i know it she will be 2 years old . When i had my first child i was always looking forward to my child first everything all though i still look forward to all the first i learned to take each moment as they come because children grow way to fast . No matter how big or small my children will always be my babies . I wish i had a remote to pause and rewind to always be able to stay in that moment . In may i was late getting my period all though a part of me would of loved another baby i knew it wouldnt be right to get pregnant not to mention all the problems i have while pregnant but even more so the problems i have with my husband i decided that if i was or wasnt it was going to be in gods hands . Well yesterday i got my period and i was a little disappoited but i knew it was for the best . I dont think it would be wise to get pregnant again . but i do miss being pregnant and the whole excitement when getting ready for baby and ultrasounds etc . i kno right now is not my time but we can never predict what is to lay ahead . so today is a very bitter sweet day for me as i come to see things as they are . i am happy to be blessed with all my beautiful children and to be their mommy . i hope all you beautiful ladies are doing good , take care of your bellies and babies ...