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lonivk has 188 days to go and is now in week 13
	Age: 30 Country: US Province/region: Ca City: San jose Partner: Ken Vander Kooi Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 21 Aug ,2012 Occupation: Swim Coach
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16-8-2011 - There are no words

My mood while writing this blog:
beyond sad

Well I guess in the end my intuition should have prepared me for what happened at my second appointment and ultrasound yesterday. I went into the appointment hoping for the best with the idea that we saw the heartbeat 3 weeks ago and that everything will be fine. Sadly this was not the case. Our first appointment baby was measuring 6w2d with a heartbeat and yesterday there was no heartbeat and the baby was only measuring 6w4d. So I am scheduled for my D&C for tomorrow morning. I didn't want to go through the pain of miscarrying at home alone with my 2 year old daughter. She doesn't need to see her mama go through that. Luckily I have the support of my husband and mother and mother in law to help me. I am so very grateful for the love and support that I have through my friends and family and ladies on this site. I think this would be even more tough to do alone. I am so beyond sad but I know that we will get through this. This will be my second miscarriage and second D&C. I thank everyone for their support. I am trying to look on the bright side of everything but its so hard right now when it seems so dark. I guess in the end I need to keep my faith in God and know that there must have been a reason for this. I already loved this baby so much but I have to believe that God needed baby more. Thank you for being there ladies and for your support. It means more to me than you all know.

3 Comments on There are no words

nmp - Sunday, 4 Sep
Thinking of you through this sad time. Like you said.. God has a plan. Bless your heart!

2ndComoBaby - Tuesday, 16 Aug
So so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you having to go through this for a second time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. If you ever need anything we're all here for you. I hope you find the strength to try again.

~*MiracleX2*~ - Tuesday, 16 Aug
Oh hunny! I am so very sorry for your loss, & the pain you must be feeling! You are right though, keeping your faith is the best way to get through this difficult time! I am so glad you have such a wonderfull support system! I pray you find strength, & peace through this!!! (((((HUGS)))))

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