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lonivk
lonivk has 188 days to go and is now in week 13
Age: 30
Country: US
Province/region: Ca
City: San jose
Partner: Ken Vander Kooi
Children: Yes, 1
Pregnant: Yes
Due date: 21 Aug ,2012
Occupation: Swim Coach
Online: 15 hours ago.
Last updated: 15 days ago.
Member since: 1350 days
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16-8-2011 - There are no words beyond sadMy mood while writing this blog:
beyond sad



Well I guess in the end my intuition should have prepared me for what happened at my second appointment and ultrasound yesterday. I went into the appointment hoping for the best with the idea that we saw the heartbeat 3 weeks ago and that everything will be fine. Sadly this was not the case. Our first appointment baby was measuring 6w2d with a heartbeat and yesterday there was no heartbeat and the baby was only measuring 6w4d. So I am scheduled for my D&C for tomorrow morning. I didn't want to go through the pain of miscarrying at home alone with my 2 year old daughter. She doesn't need to see her mama go through that. Luckily I have the support of my husband and mother and mother in law to help me. I am so very grateful for the love and support that I have through my friends and family and ladies on this site. I think this would be even more tough to do alone. I am so beyond sad but I know that we will get through this. This will be my second miscarriage and second D&C. I thank everyone for their support. I am trying to look on the bright side of everything but its so hard right now when it seems so dark. I guess in the end I need to keep my faith in God and know that there must have been a reason for this. I already loved this baby so much but I have to believe that God needed baby more. Thank you for being there ladies and for your support. It means more to me than you all know.



3 Comments on There are no words


nmp - Sunday, 4 Sep
Thinking of you through this sad time. Like you said.. God has a plan. Bless your heart!

2ndComoBaby - Tuesday, 16 Aug
So so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you having to go through this for a second time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. If you ever need anything we're all here for you. I hope you find the strength to try again.

~*MiracleX2*~ - Tuesday, 16 Aug
Oh hunny! I am so very sorry for your loss, & the pain you must be feeling! You are right though, keeping your faith is the best way to get through this difficult time! I am so glad you have such a wonderfull support system! I pray you find strength, & peace through this!!! (((((HUGS)))))
Photos
 (2009, 07, 17) Hubby and KJ (2009, 07, 17) Kaitlin Jane 8 lbs. 13 oz. (2009, 07, 17) Nephew Jeffrey (2008, 11, 06) Engagement pic (2008, 11, 06) Chillin in Seattle (2008, 11, 06)  (2008, 12, 09)  (2008, 12, 09)  (2008, 12, 09)  (2008, 12, 09) Baby Girl VK (2009, 01, 28) It`s a Girl!!!!! (2009, 01, 28) Baby VK (2009, 03, 19) Baby VK (2009, 03, 19) Section of Kaitlin`s room with me at 26 weeks!! (2009, 04, 05) My little girl`s name sign I made! (2009, 04, 05) 30 weeks belly next to Kaitlin`s crib (2009, 04, 05) Click here to see all lonivk`s photos

Children
Kaitlin-Jane (2009)

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