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| 05-3-2009 - Breakdown..... |
My mood while writing this blog: So Very Depressed! |
Oh girls, I am having a morning; I had the BIGGEST breakdown and I still cannot stop crying for over 2 hours now. My 9 year old daughter lost her 10th tooth yesterday at school and the tooth fairy forgot to come last night! Yes, she knows it is me, but she was SO EXCITED AND PROUD and made the point last night to tell me how excited she was to wake up this morning to see what the 'tooth fairy' brought. She came downstairs and just had such a disappointed look as she showed me what I forgot, but she just kept telling me it was ok as I apologized and told her how terrible I felt. She is such a caretaker and takes so much resposibility for my failings even amongst her diasappointment. I BROKE DOWN crying so hard that I made her start balling. I know I don't need to tell you other mommies how it made me feel because I know you understand, but nothing scares me more than the thought of not living up to the mommy I have always been with my daughter, with the arrival of the new one. As most of you know, she and I have such an amazing bond and are SO CLOSE! I just feel like CRAP! I know one day, probably even this afternoon, I will be laughing about it, and I know it sounds silly, but omg, I am hurting so badly by this.
3 Comments on Breakdown.....ltosha78 -
Thursday, 5 Mar that is so sweet. you and your daughter will def laugh over that when she gets older. so awesome to have such a close bond. it's ok:) TwinklinBrwnEyes -
Thursday, 5 Mar Awww poor you don't cry. Your little one understands..she's smart and caring and she knows you didn't mean to. Like you said you and her will be giggling it up about it later. And guess what....i've done it on many occassions (my girls believe she's real lol) so they don't even bother anymore lol now that I should be ashamed of. No worries mama. Hey I wonder if you can take her out of school so that you can take her to lunch...just a thought...although you are suppost to be on bed rest!! Feel better already, ok!?!?! Mommy Brittani -
Thursday, 5 Mar Aww im sorry. Your daughter seems really sweet so im sure she understands. Maybe this afternoon you and her can go do something I bet she would like that It would be good for the both of you good luck hun and your a wonderful mom dont ever doubt your mommy skills!