31-8-2009 - Please pray for me

My mood while writing this blog: hurt

Well it’s official. My ex has moved on. He’s found a new gf and is going to fight me for full custody. I want to go back home so bad, but that means one of us wont have Kobi and out future son too. I would die without my kids. Especially since he has told me over and over again how this was my choice to have them. Why does he want to fight me? I’m not trying to take them away but I can’t make it here on my own. I’m pregnant and need my mom, I need support. Support he said he would give me but hasn’t. I’m almost 20 weeks and he has done nothing to help me or help cover the cost of my medical bills. So why should he get custody?? Please pray that once we go to court the judge will see it in my favor to grant me full custody. It’s bad enough thinking that I won’t have my kids for certain holidays and life events. The lord is the only one that can help me now. So please pray that he surrounds me with all his angels and I win this hurtful battle. I love my kid(s) and will do anything to keep them with me. I’m not a bad mother. I’m just trying to survive, but I want to be happy too. Please pray for me and the welfare of my kid(s). Many thanks.