04-5-2009 - emotional ramblings...

My mood while writing this blog: content

Ok, just wanted to blog this just in case I seem to think otherwise within the next 5 months, I can look back and remind myself of two things...

***I LOVE BEING PREGNANT! I still have not felt baby kick yet, or move, (hurry up sweetie!) but always feel like the baby is with me. I haven't gotten sick yet, only discomfort has been major headaches and having to pee constantly, but those aren't bad. Everyone tells me I look great, I've gained about 10 lbs, but it's in the B's- boobs, butt, belly. I love how it feels to push on my belly and feel the hardness of my baby. I love falling asleep with my bf rubbing my stomach. I love how excited everyone gets when I tell them I'm pregnant. I love sitting at home doing nothing but being lazy and having an excuse for it. I love daydreaming about how my babe is gonna be when he/she comes out. I love throwing name ideas back n forth with my boo. I love the crazy dreams I'm having. I love seeing my belly getting bigger. I love knowing I'm going to have my own baby to help to grow into a great person. I love looking at the week pages to see the changes going on every week with my lil one. I love knowing this baby is going to be showered with love. Even though getting pregnant was a huge oops and surprise, I'm so glad I can bring our baby into my bf and my loving relationship, and that the baby is gonna make us into a little family... which brings me to...

***I LOVE MY AMAZING BOYFRIEND! I never thought any man could love me and treat me like Jake does. I'm so thankful that he wanted me to keep our baby and that he is taking responsibility for our child without a second thought about it. I know I'm lucky, guys like mine are one of a kind. He has been so sweet to me this entire pregnancy. Always asking if I need anything, rubbing my back, putting up with my crabby and/or emotional times, getting up early to make me the world's best scrambled eggs, going to every single doctor's appointment with me (without me even asking him to), and working hard at his new job to help out with money. He always tells me I'm hot or pretty when I just feel big and ugly, makes me laugh and smile when I'm sad or pissy, and drives way out of his way to sleep with me at my place pretty much every night after he gets off work. He always holds me when I need him and helps me with anything I need. He never ever does or has done anything to make me doubt his honesty, intentions, or faithfulness to me. And never does anything to make me think he will be anything but a wonderful father. He makes me SOOO happy to be alive, and I just can't wait to be his wife! (and keep him forever, lol!)