22-11-2008 - Pregnancy update- 24 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: ready for anything!

I have found myself at a brand new stage of pregnancy.

This is my first baby so let me tell you- I was so happy to get through the first trimester. I thought I was going to die and couldn't understand how people did this to themselves multiple times.

I found a new love for being pregnant and for my baby once I had a little bump and could feel the cute flutters of my little angel (thank god the MS stopped).

I am recently transitioning to the "belly". Strangers can tell that I'm pregnant and my angel's flutters are now more powerful "kicks". I love feeling her move but she is already learning how to "push buttons". I don't know what she hits in there but it feels really uncomfortable sometimes. I love when my husband rubs my belly and talks to her. I have an all new love for him now that we will be a family and he will not only be my husband but the father of my beautiful baby girl. I never knew my love could grow deeper for him but boy it has. When we work on her room together it just feels absolutely amazing and so right.

I have an all new appreciation for pregnant women & I truly admire surrogates because what they do and go through to fullfill a dream of another women is absolutely amazing to me. I know that my breasts are swollen and sore, my feet swell and ache after about five hours of my day, and my back is always sore by dinner time. I love coming home and putting my comfy pajamas on and hitting my heating pad...then she will kick, and all the discomforts just melt away. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and gaze down at her soft, little face. To see her gorgeous eyes looking up at me and smelling her when I hold her close. To see the features of her daddy start to appear in her...I just can't wait!

I hope that I can raise this little girl to love and respect herself and to be a good member of society. I want her to follow her dreams and be successful. I want to give her everything she wants and more but to still instill the values of hard work and appreciation. I hope that she's like me and can get dressed up but still likes to go out and get her hands dirty too. I wish everyday that I am a good mom and make all the right decisions. Boy- I thought pregnancy was hard until I started thinking about what comes after...being a good mom.

I am ready and so willing to accept this new challange and feel blessed to have such a wonderful partner by my side. Bring it on- We are ready! (until the teenage years anyway :o) 16 weeks and counting...