16-9-2008 - 20 weeks and happy

My mood while writing this blog: happy and chipper little monkey!

soooo im here at twenty weeks and im just so over the moon happy i feel like i could burst.. even tho my boss is a dick and my body is aching beyond all measure - my tummy is huge and round - i feel over the moon!

Sitting on the couch last night i said to scott did you ever think we could be this happy and he went no and i said me either - im soo in love with him and my little boy. We had a christening to go to on sunday and i was so mad cause he only told me the day before and i had nothing to wear i cried and cired ( and he also laughed at my fat bits in the only dress that i had... so i just went to the 'reception' type thing afterwards in my comfy jeans and had a great time no one was annoyed i didnt make it to the church - i was just glad to get out of the house and speak to other people and harry had a great time out playing with all the kids in scotts family. Scotty said it was time i got some maternity clothes and i was like noooo i refuse to be a mumsy mum in my cruddy maternity clothes but i ordered £200 bucks worth of dresses and tops to wear and ill be sending him the bill! all i need to get now is some tights and a new bra from freya and perhaps some primark knickers and some comfy jammies and a huge cardigan from there.

I managed to make it to the gym yesterday and swam 20 lengths and although i was so tired by 9 last night it added to my contentment that i was being good and healthy for my baby. so going again today to swim 10 and take it easier if i feel like doing more i will but im not pushing myself - tomorrow will be a 20 day again..

I start the antenatal yoga on saturday so im looking forward to that as well, i used to love yoga so im hoping it gives me strength and (cheesy) inner peace for the next few months..

ooh another physio appt on thursday for my hips and also trying to locate and strengthen my missing pelvic floor.. EEK ! (hope its not a knickers off - hard hat, torch, and three day cave dwelling expidition for the physio.. theres a forest to fight through if she dare! )

also 'big fat defect scan' on friday.. this baby better not be rhino sized.

ive been having some crazy mental dreams and even woke up the other night fully wide awake to a man standing at the end of my bed looking over scott.. really spooky moment i told my mum and she thinks its common for hormonal chicks to see spirits so im not scared..

i had a hilarious crazy dream that i was giving birth to a bloody goat.. i told my mum and she laughed her head off i dreamt i was on a farm and they had discovered that my baby was actually a baby goat.. and i had to decide whether to keep it and raise it as my own or give it to an animal sanctury to brin up - i was crying cause i could feel it kicking away inside and was convinced it looked like a real baby at the hospital and didnt know if anyhone would notice my baby was a goat if i chose to keep it. then in the dream scott had an affair with a sow and all his baby piglets eh had with this fat sow came running out the wall.. i was left crying saying it must have turned into a goat cause it was conceived on a farm wall which is sooooo not how it happened in realy life) . and cause i cant have real babies scott left me for someone else.. wonder if it my fear of this baby having cleft palate thats making me dream this crap.. that was certainly a corker.. when preg with harry i dreamed that i popped like a toaster and gve birth to hot buttery jam toast.. ???!!!

so all in all the conclusion for this week is

im fat and round but trying to get healthier and at least try and keep the blubber in check

still spotty and most definatly not glowing

im hairy - like 70's disco hairy YUK!

i spent too much money on clothes

the woman in the gym are cows and should pay more attention to their own leathery permatan crocodile skin than my bump

scott thinks its funny that my hips are chubby and nearly wet himself laughing at me

i see dead people

im hoping that when i get my scan on friday the babys mouth is intact and doesnt have horns four legs hooves and a tail.

*fingers crossed* my consultants not a bar steward on friday as well

and im a happy little chipper monkey

ooooohh and my mates are throwing me a small - very small ( i hate the drama) baby shower on the 22nd november!! EEK!

much love pregos

xxxxxx