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10-9-2009 - deepest of blues

My mood while writing this blog: down

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as you are all aware im not having a great time -im trying so hard to be positive but then night time hits and i end up calling scott asking him to come back to me totall pathetic. i started my own wee business veture it went live this month and ive felt so bad i took offline rather than do it . im going to lose everything ive put into it - it was my hope of staying at home and beng a savvy business woman -and someone my children will feel secure with


ive been to the doctors but the medication they gave me has horrible side effects and i wont risk talking it - im not losing another three years of my life cause yet again someone has led me up the garden path . i need to be succesful and someone harry and alfie can be proud of . so what do i do from here ? work hard during the day while caring for harry and alfie and by night become a snivelling mess.. when does it get better ?

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3 Comments on deepest of blues


bezzi44 - Thursday, 10 Sep
Chin up sweetie. You can get through this and when you do, you'll be a million times happier and wondered why you ever let yourself, let someone else, get you so down. Trust me, I know! #1 - get better meds.#2 - find a good counsellor (sp) to talk to.#3 - realize that only you can make yourself happy, not someone else.#4 - kids with no dad are better than a dad that doesn't care!!!! Oh, I feel your pain. I've been there and I know the darkness in your heart. But look at those beautiful children you have and dig deep to find strength and your sunshine! ****HUGS****

ladylocks02 - Thursday, 10 Sep
I really dont know what to say hunny but its not nice hearing u so down!!! xx

lisad11784 - Thursday, 10 Sep
I am so sorry to hear that, I truly hope things get better for you, you deserve it!