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	Age: 20 Country: Australia Province/region: City: Melbourne Partner: Daniel :D Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Trying to conceive Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: Mummy and entertainment consultant
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26-4-2009 - scared

My mood while writing this blog:
.... no current mood!

hey girls, Hope everyone else is doing really well and there pregnancies/ttc are going well!

So now its really starting to hit me... i cnt speak to my partner about this and ive been keeping it in for a long time.. he got freaked out in the first 3 months of this pregnancy .. so anyways as it goes now im getting scared and i love my child please dont think i dont this is the major point i want to make i really do love my child that im going to be having... but i dont know if this is something i really wanted... again i have to say im very happy that im having this child but as it gets closer im getting more scared... i dont have a mum who i can ask for help, dereks parents arnt the best either, i have my godmum who sometimes i worry if she will tell me that im doing something wrong and i will feel like shit if she does.. but i think that she will just watch from a distance.
But back to the point, Is it normal to be this scared.. what do i do with bub after she comes, i know its the feeding and everything but i mean, i dont know .. maybe someone on this forum understands this... maybe none of you do, but i still need to get it out. I feel like im being crushed... like im not the person i was beforehand.. my partner says he hasnt seen a change in me at all and still thinks im the person he met and fell in love with, but i think ive lost my cuteness, my bouncyness, all of my funess, i used to be full on and go out all the time , speak on the phone for hours, and chill with mates.... Now all i want to do is stay at home, rest and relax with my partner.. thats it...

I dunno maybe its just me getting scared and it will all change afterwards... i just want her to be here now so i know what its going to be like.. maybe its a fear of the unknown.. im not sure but im really not feeling who i used to be.

Anyways enough of my complaining onto the baby and news... Wow so next week will be the time where i start to pack my hospital bag.. freaky ey... i think thats another think that is freaking me out.. its not that long until she is here.. and im so excited about it but wish it was now.. bub has been moving soo much now.. its pretty full on her room is done and im only needing a few more things like a clothing hamper, diapers, bin, umm yeah i really need to get a checklist hehe and tick everything off.

Quick question before i finish this long one off... what size clothing has most of you guys got... i have 000 the most and only a few 0000, what about all of you?

Anyways sorry about my rant i needed to get it out Xoxo

1 Comments on scared

tassie-mum - Sunday, 26 Apr
I know exactely how you feel, I'm not as far along but im starting to feel the exact same emotions.
Its really scary. Please try to relax though..
I got 0000 mostely because I am a small person with a petite frame and the doctor told me I will have a small baby but it really depends. Everyone is different I guess
Anyway good luck with everything!
Xo

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