31-8-2008 - 30 weeks Today

My mood while writing this blog: lonely

The countdown from 10 weeks today starts now!

I've been thinking about John and its been 10 weeks since i haerd from him, i remember cos it was a fews after my my ultrasound when he rang and he shouting at me accusing of stealing from him. Its funny but apart of me wishes that there was something he could do or say to make up for all the horrible things he's done and said and could still get married and have more children. But even if those words exsisted he'd never say them. He'll never try to make it right and even that would be something!

I wonder if he has saved any money for his son, or even bought him a teddy bear or little baby gro. I wonder if he dreams of us, if he lies awake nights and worries. I wonder if he still love us!