22-10-2008 - Can't Wait

My mood while writing this blog: Excited

OMG!! I can't wait until Conor is born!!

I just can't wait until i get to take him home and walk up the main street pushing my pram with my little man in it!! I live in a smallish town and i've lived here forever so everyone will be stopping and saying hello having a peek!! It'll be so exciting!!

I'm feeling much more confident now about everything i was feeling very vulnerable with the situation with the baby's father, but right now all i feel is that he better start kissing my ass because I'm the one in control!!

WhenI found out i was pregnant his attittude and behaviour made it impossible for me to get excited and I was starting to dread what he was gonna do after the birth! But i've decided that there is no way in hell i'm gonna let him take this excitment away from me! And if John doesn't start repecting me and showing some effort in behalf of his child without being badgered into it then he can push right off cos i will not settle for anything for anything less the 110% for my child and his father isn't willing to give that then we can manage without him, i will not anyone to treat my or my child as second best!! And the only person in john's life who ever came 1st was him!

Wow!!! Felt good to get that out!!

I Have the Power!!!