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21-8-2009 - feeling like i'm neglecting my babygirl, HELP!!!

My mood while writing this blog:
worried

Well, i've been back to work for a week now (doing workdays...the students will be back on Tuesday). I have a problem, though. I feel like i'm neglecting Jayde. It's like i have no energy to keep up with her and give her the attention she deserves. It's different now that she is almost 6 months old versus her only being 7 weeks old when i went back after maternity leave. Idk, i felt like at 7 weeks she was sleeping so much and not really that active. Now, she's doing so many things and will continue to reach new achievements that i may miss. I seriously cry almost everyday just thinking about what i'm missing and if she's going to make more of an attachment with someone else cuz i'm not there. Also, once i get off work i'm too tired to really play with her. I'll get in the floor with her for about 15mins. at a time before i've gotta give her something to do so i can chill out. She tends to like to explore by herself for awhile anyways (like right now she wants to be in her swing). I hate that i'm soooo tired when i get her. I pick her up between 4:30 and 5pm and she's asleep by 7:30 so that only about 2.5 or 3 hours with her everyday. In the morn i wake her up only in enough time to get her ready for the day. Am i gonna be this miserable all schoolyear long??! How do the rest of you ladies deal with it?? HELP!!!

Also, i found childcare for Jayde that will work...but, her dad has been around A LOT lately and actually kept her for like 5-7hrs. a day everyday this week while i was in for workdays. He wants to keep her during the day (since he's not working or in school) and i don't think it's too bad of an idea. I've made it clear i don't want her around certain ppl or things just yet (like his g/f) and i'm not sure if i fully trust him again. What should i do?? It would save a TON of money and we all know how good it is for us single moms to be able to save money. So....should i let Rol just keep Jayde during the day for now?

Yall, please pray i get more energy or somehow figure something out where i can spend more time with my princess.

4 Comments on feeling like i'm neglecting my babygirl, HELP!!!

preggieagain - Tuesday, 25 Aug
So I know that I am a little late responding to this blog, but it is because I know EXACTLY how you feel. I work at a school too, and my daughter is two days younger than yours. It is super rough girl... I have to leave my house at 6.15, and get home around 3.45... Briley probably is up for 3 hours during the time that I get home and before we hit the sack, and it is sooo hard to keep my eyes open. AND, she is starting to crawl now. Ya, so I feel your pain. I keep trying to remind myself that it is hard for me to adjust to getting back into the work habit again, but after a few more weeks, I will get used to it and have some energy in the afternoons. Weekends are about family, and I make sure that the little things that I did during the summer (liking napping together) take place on the weekends. And of course, I am soooo looking forward to all of our days off! Hang in there... it is not easy, but it is not impossible.

AKA.mom - Saturday, 22 Aug
I say since you have teh weekends off you try to make them all about her. that way you will get to spend time with her and you wont be so stressed out. now as far as the father thing...i feel you and all I can do is say try it out adn if it goes well cool and if not take her to teh day care

BlackRussian - Saturday, 22 Aug
Ok my little girl is 3 weeks and it scares the hell out of me thinking of going back to work in a few weeks. I am doing what you are considering though, I am leaving her with her dad for the day since he works from home, but we are together and she will be at our home for the most part so I will know her every move, if you TRUST your babys dad then i think its a great idea and itll save a bunch of money, but if you arent sure where he'll have who and who he'll have her around then it might be more stress then money saved ya know? Cuz if your workin 7 or so hours a day and you dont want your baby girl to meet his new broad, do you think he'll for real not have her around for 7 hours a day? I dunno your exact scenario so its hard to comment on it, but ya think about how worried youll be if you dont trust him, but if you do then thats definatly a good workable solution :) take care mama, xoxo.

mommabell - Friday, 21 Aug
I'm sorry you feel this way! But just know that you are not alone. MANY moms that go back to work feel that exact same way that you do. When my son was born I went back to work, and I cried and cried and cried! My husband thought I was nuts. Thankfully for me, he didn't do so well being with a baby by himself so he told me to quit! But I do know how you feel, but you will figure something out, and you will feel a lot better. xoxoxo

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