12-5-2008 - CONFUSINGGG

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Ok sorry i havent been writing a lot lately lol ive been real OUT OF IT! So stressed I have been for the last 3 weeks, let me tell you all whats been happening. Well first of all my husband was so excited to get his licence that he went and bought a new car. WITH THE BABYS NURSERY FUND IVE BEEN SAVING! I go to him its not fair oh it stresses me out everytime i think about it! He goes he will fix the car up and sell it, but I WANT TO GET THE NURSERY NOW! ITS NOT BLOODY FAIR!!

I think he realises that ive been real pissed with him lately coz i havnt been myself, a bit depressed here and there :(. I move into my new house next week which is a blessing, but my relatives think i dont deserve the house? My dad had bought it recently and had asked me to move in, not anyone else. Well my uncle went around asking people who wants to move into Sam's new house, and at least 5 people said yes. One of those 5 people was a close friend. Anyways she calls me up and asks me about my dads house and who is moving in. I said I am. She goes you are, but you don't need a house. I go yes I do I am expanding my family. And shes like oh then where am I going to find a house? (she is getting married in a month and half and its really really hard to find a decent house in Sydney) I go I dont know. I even told her I didnt want my dads house ( he was lettin me rent it for dirt cheap even though he could get much much more for it) and I was looking for a house and when my dad heard about it he got really upset coz he wanted me to raise my child in a decnet home. Well i curently live in a high rise apartment and im sick of my neighbours all they do is scream and yell at night and its not a nice place lol. it might be a nice apartment but its in a crap area of sydney. So ever since that phone call I havent heard from her oh well.

Tomoro I go for a check up I have to remind my self to ask the midwife if we get to do another ultrasound of the baby to see if its growing well or not.

I BETTER!!

ANYWAYS Ill try and keep you updated.