29-5-2009 - Wow I cant believe it!

My mood while writing this blog: excited

This feels weird to be writing on a Pregnancy site and not just looking! I am Pregnant and I cant believe it! We have been trying for what feels like forever, we have started and stoped a few times but this time we have been trying for only 5 months. I really think the Ovulation test I used really helped to pin point the best day's. I feel at the moment like I'm going to jynx myself by acknowledging being Pregnant but I can't go through the next (hopefully) 9 months waiting for something bad to happen can I?? The doctor I saw on Monday was so negative which I don't need as I'm fully aware of the risk. We have not used contraception for our entire relationship (10 yrs) and it has never happened, then I had a tube out 2 yrs ago and thought great now it's never going to happen, so I never allowed myself to really really want it for the fear of it not happening.I really thought it was not something that was ever going ot happen to me, but it has!!!! My heart beats out of my chest when I say 'I'm pregnant'

I have however stopped peeing on sticks! I got up at 3am the other morning as I woke up and thought it was a dream! I am still carying a stick around i my bag though! is that weird?? I wish I could do some sort of check so I know all is ok but I just have to wait. I just have to be calm, relaxed and try not to stress. I cant wait till the 12th June for my first scan! Fingers and toes crossed that this lasts..... I am praying and hoping every minute of the day that this is it??????