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| 09-2-2010 - In it together |
My mood while writing this blog: calm |
Well ladies....I guess this really means that DH and I are officially in it together. I know that probably sounds funny since we have been TTC for almost 2 years now but sometimes it takes time to get everyone on board. I can't say that I have been totally on board with this the whole time-secretly wanting to be better off financially and also being able to provide at least health insurance has been at the back of my mind. So, DH and I had a good long talk and although I was hesitant I know that it is for the best. Don't worry we are still TTC we just are going to try to take a couple months off so we can focus on some much needed 'self' time. I know that some of you will probably say "yes that is what you need, take a break and then it will happen" well this isn't that kind of break. I am talking the use protection and prevent it from happening break. I know right?! WTF are we doing? IDK honestly but I guess it needs to be done. I am finding myself losing hope again and this time I am afraid that it isn't coming back. The monthly disappointments are becoming overwhelming and I am really just tired. I can't explain how I feel because it is just a feeling that I have, maybe I just know that it isn't the right time, or maybe it is just exhaustion...Whatever it is it is overwhelming and I need to listen to it.
So, I will continue with acupuncture and I will discuss this with him tomorrow at our appointment (he will be fine with it because he is a very understanding person) then DH and I have a goal to get ourselves in better shape, physically and mentally, over the next couple of months and then when we are ready we will try again. I don't know maybe it won't last but a month or two. I just know that this is what we need and I am glad that DH finally let me inside his quiet little head to tell me how he felt because I was starting to worry.
Well, I will still be here if anyone wants to chat-don't write me off of the TTC site just yet. I hope that this finds you all in good spirits!
Thanks for reading! Talk to you soon!
tiff
PS by the way I just ordered the fertility yoga DVD and am way excited to see what that has to offer.
2 Comments on In it togetherroosa -
Tuesday, 9 Feb The need for a break is so understandable!! Good on you both for following your heart - and may you be blessed just when the time is right! xox Karin babydust08 -
Tuesday, 9 Feb Everyone needs to take a break. It will give you a chance to just focus on "you" again. :) Get healthy, happy, and ready again!! Have fun on your ttc break!!! :)