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20-12-2011 - Time could slow down a little....

My mood while writing this blog: Content

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When I was pregnant with Lyla (2.5y) I just wanted it to be over basically as soon as it started.. I could not wait for her to come I was so excited! And don't get me wrong, I am excited to have Madison here, but I feel like I need more time!! It's creeping up so quickly! I am very sick of being pregnant for sure.. I am sore, tired, achey, my arthritis has been so bad lately, sick of getting up to pee in the night, sick of heart burn, the list goes on. But it's funny, despite all of that, I need more time! I feel like not only do I have a lot to do before our home will be ready, but I feel like I need more time with just Lyla and I.. My DH thinks I am insane, but I have this bizaar fear that I am not going to love Madison as much as I love Lyla. I know how rediculous that sounds, but thats how I feel! I know logically that it's not true.. I know my mom loves me and my sisters all the same.. But I guess I just can't imagine loving anyone as much as I love Lyla.

I knew when I was pregnant with Lyla that I would love her, but until I spent our first moments together I dont think I even know what it was like to love someone this much.. So, I guess Im just nervous that it wont be the same with Madison or something???? IDK.. Oy.

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3 Comments on Time could slow down a little....


mamalala - Tuesday, 20 Dec
Thanks for the encouragement girls!! It helps :)

jennybepreggo - Tuesday, 20 Dec
It probably won't be the same :) You'll love Madison, to be sure, but the love will be different. One love is not greater than another, it's different from one to another.

brie(blue) - Tuesday, 20 Dec
I think those thoughts are totally normal. I have an older child as well and the way I look at is, for every child you have you don't lose love for one to give to another but that your heart actually gets bigger and you have enough love to go around to all of your children equally. I hope that makes sense. Take care of yourself and definitely enjoy your time with Lyla now but don't worry it will be just as wonderful after your second.