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08-4-2009 - problems...severly depressed

My mood while writing this blog:
crying as usual

i dont freaking know what to do...i cant even talk about it without crying...ill start with the problems...everything is healing well and i feel semi great *without the depression and what not* but i keep getting this hellish feeling in my spine and its driving me insane!!! its like pressure that runs up my spine and into the back of my head and it gives me this headache that could take down an elephant!!! im trying to stay strong but its getting hard...i thought it was becuz of the spinal but when i called the dr. they said a spinal headache would be so bad i wouldnt even be able to stand light...its not that bad...im so scared something bad has happened...what if i have to live with this forever?!?!?!

another problem...im dealing with the baby blues really bad...i cant look at my family without crying...my fiance is worried...i just want to be happy again...i want to go out and have fun and feel better...i want to look at my family and smile...its not like im sad...i dont feel sad...i love my little family....i can laugh and cry at the same freaking time!!! im sick of being emotional!!!

last problem....because negativity seems to control me right now...im trying to breastfeed and my son wont latch on and i got an electric pump and its like i produced milk really good a few times but now im not producing sh*t *sorry bout the language im just upset* my fiance went out and spent money on this pump and its not even going to get used like i wanted to...

i dont know what to do plz pray for me to get over this sadness

6 Comments on problems...severly depressed

sexyrose - Thursday, 16 Apr
Hey there Ms lady............... having a new baby at home is an emotional thing lol............ I can cry one min and laugh the next my own self.... it'll get better.. this is my first baby and Im done with it.. I love her soooooooo much.. and she has the colic : ( so that is added to all the emotions and of course lack of sleep. we will pull thru.. however if your baby blues dont clear up soon be sure and tell ur dr asap...............

Beluga - Friday, 10 Apr
Hey.... It is okay to feel blue, after all labor and pregnancy is a big experience.... plus hormones are just crazy... just take it one day at a time, one hour at a time.... and rest as much as you can.... About breastfeeding... well, I am in the same boat.... I started pumping (my daughter is still in the hospital) and it took me 4 days!! for my milk to come out... I pumped religiously every 2-3 hours for the first 4 days and nothing, nada, not even drops!!!..... In day 5, my milk finally came... just few drops for 2 days... Finally I started getting milk on day 7.... and everything was fine until this week, when my milk supply just got stuck and did not increased, I am just able to pump150 ml in a day (and pumping every 3 hours for 15-20 minutes.... My lactation consultant recomended me to take fenugreek... but so far after taking it for 2 days, my milk supply is still very very low and ì am not able to keep with the feeding needs of my baby.... So, I just give time to time and do as much as I can, drink fluids, rest and try to stay calm... but I understand you and I know that it is frustating.... So, hang in there, you are not alone in there ... Sending you lots of milk dust... xoxo :-D

scanzaniello - Wednesday, 8 Apr
I am sorry you are feeling so blue. It is going to take some time for the hormones to go back and I know you have heard this before. If it get's to bad and you can't come out of it you may need some happy pill just till you get over this hump. Also with breastfeeding if you are tense in anyway the baby will not latch on he is picking up on mommy being stressed. Maybe your fiance can take your daughter out for the day so you and your new guy can chill and just breath. The nipple shield great idea my sister used it and it worked for her. her nipple was the wrong shape so it freaked my niece out. Your back try some ice. I know a lot about backs I had back surgery back in 96 and the ice will take any inflamation down that is in your spine. I feel for yaa and I hope you are feeling better this should be a happy time not so blue.

jeff - Wednesday, 8 Apr
My lo had trouble latching as well. After a couple sessions with my lactation consultant we got it all sorted out. I hope your hormones ease up on you soon so you feel alittle more yourself. :) edit: as an aside I started having trouble latching a few days after the birth due to my engorgement..... If you think that's your problem you could try applying pressure to your breast (with the flat of your hand) straight back to your rib cage. Hold it for a min to allow the milk to shift and then try again. (it kinda hurts but it deff. helped baby latch in my case)

kaeljoval - Wednesday, 8 Apr
Kael wasn't latching either and I have been pumping for the past week until yesterday when the nurse came and brought me a shield and that has helped solved the latching problem. But he's still not eating like he should, and he's lost weight. Have you tried a shield? You can get them at Target by Medela like mommaof3 said.

Hopefully you'll feel better soon though :[

3kiddos - Wednesday, 8 Apr
The headaches are probably due to hormones...I've been having a lot of headaches since I had my son too. Just take one day at a time honey....having a baby is not an easy thing to do and you are just trying to adjust to being a mommy again. Also...the breastfeeding thing..my son wouldn't latch on either and I have been pumping as well and my milk isn't as much as it was the first couple of days after I had him. I went and got the nipple shields by Medela and he is latching on great now and my milk is coming back. :0) Hang in there, it will all work itself out!

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