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18-4-2009 - the decision to stop is breaking my heart

My mood while writing this blog:
saddened

so...i thought it over and over again...went out and bought fenugreek and the nipple shield and my fiance got me an electric pump...but im pretty sure its over...i cant express anymore than the smallest freaking amount of milk and he did fine on the shield for a few days then it was back to fighting to drink....it seems like all i do is feed for a half hour and then supplement feed for about 20 more minutes....its neverending and with 2 kids its harder..plus im not really getting any help from my fiance..last night i asked him to feed the baby a bottle and he told me no...all i wanted was a break...that started an argument *but we're over it* now i feel like im trying to make up excuses...i dont want to stop but its too much at this point and they say not to be stressed out and i end up stressed out...ill be upset about it for awhile but then i'll be okay...this is the second time ive had problems with breastfeeding...i had problems breastfeeding my daughter...she didnt seem to get enough and was still hungry...with my son i cant even get him to latch on...so once again..my body just doesnt want to do what its supposed to...hmm...im gonna stop here and go find something to bind my boobies with...

8 Comments on the decision to stop is breaking my heart

SunnyMom - Tuesday, 21 Apr
i totaly understand how you are feeling...i have struggled and struggled and am still struggling with bf...my nipples are so painful...my production is so poor...my baby is cranky...it's hard to latch on...it has been one of my worst experiences ever!! they say bf is not supposed to be painful and it is always painful...even when my milk comes in my breasts just throb with stabbing pains..i seriously hate bf!!! i was very sad though when i had to supplement with formula...so i understand your feelings....if my hubby didn't pick up some feeding slack for me i would have given up by now. please know that you are not alone...and dont beat yourself up...the important thing is that baby is well fed and happy...lots of hugs to you!!!! please excuse the one handed typing..

kaeljoval - Sunday, 19 Apr
Awwe that's too bad. But as long as he got some of it instead of none at all (immunities), I think you're doing the right thing. I got so stressed with Kael that I almost gave up. Luckily the shield worked for me. In the end you know whats best for you and child :]

scanzaniello - Sunday, 19 Apr
I had trouble in the hospital with breastfeeding my daughter also. My milk was not in and she was getting mad and would not latch right and she lost 9 ounces int he hospital. I am home now and my milk came in and she is doing great I can tell she has put on wait too. I have big nips to and she has a little mouth but I jammed it in her mouth and now she is a pro at it. I know how you feel because I was in the hospital thinking oh no what am I going to do if she doesn't like the boob.

3kiddos - Sunday, 19 Apr
You should do whatever you think is good for you and your little one. I hate it when I hear people say "It's the most natural thing in the world!" Uh...if it was so "natural" why are there breast pumps and formula!! This is my 3rd child and I am having a hard too (as I did with my other 2 kiddos). There is nothing wrong with feeding your baby formula. Also, you can bond with your son bottle feeding just as well. Hold him close and talk to him. Your LO will love you just as much!!! Hang in there sweetie...we are all here for you!

mntnwmn477 - Saturday, 18 Apr
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this. I kinda had the same problem...except at first I was producing way too much milk and my breasts got super, super engorged that it made it hard for my little one to latch on and I even used a nipple shield but it seemed to take forever for her to eat, so I started pumping the milk and feeding it to her in a bottle. Then, I sorta stopped pumping as much and ended up losing my milk supply by quite a bit and was really worried about what I was going to do. But once I started pumping regularly, about ever 4 hours, my milk slowly came in and now i'm strickly feeding her breastmilk from the bottle. It seems to work great. I miss the personal contact with her but at least this way she's getting food. I hope everything works out for you.

luckypenny - Saturday, 18 Apr
Don't beat yourself up about it....this breastfeeding thing is HARD! And I'm sorry but "don't get stressed" gimmie a break! When you have a SCREAMING baby on your boob that won't latch on and all you want to do is bond and give it nourishment its HELL! I'm going bananas! Its not "bonding" to me if she's so unhappy...maybe do skin to skin bottle feedings? My lil one likes that...

melissaann - Saturday, 18 Apr
ive never breastfed any of mine :(, I was 18 with my 1st and worked full time as a single mom..after i got married and had our others..i just never did..weird but i never gave it any thought, theyve all done fine on formula...and i never felt like ive missed out on any bonding..maybe im just weird like that lol.... im sure that full headed head of hair and the baby boy that goes with it will be just fine deary! buck up cowgirl! :)

kristin08 - Saturday, 18 Apr
I'm so sorry ur feeling down. I had the same problem. I didn't produce enough milk for my daughter so i had to stop. I was so depressed when i finally did too. I felt like crap because i wasn't able to do it but in the end it was the best thing for both of us. I was miserable doing it because it hurt and i felt like a cow. I'd feed her then an hour later pump then an hour later feed her. This went on and on all day. I just couldn't handle it. I think if i was able to produce more i wouldn't have had to feed her or pump as often. Once she started bottle feeding things got so much better. U just have to do whats best for u and ur little one and if stopping is whats going to relieve ur stress than i say go for it. When i finally decided to stop i just wore a bra that was two sizes too small. Within a couple days i was all dried up. Worked wonders.

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