03-7-2009 - Maybe I took it too far?

My mood while writing this blog: Energized

Apparently this whole nesting thing is really starting to get to me. I have went crazy in the house this week. It was my first week working from home and I have developed a cleaning problem. I am expecting my swiffer wetjet to go on strike any day now.. haha.

I have been so frustrated that I can't help out in the yard this year. I am OCD about the yard looking good and being neat. I don't want to be the "redneck" house of the neighborhood that lets the grass and bushes get out of hand. My fiancee and I worked so hard when we moved into this house last year to get the yard under control. It took several weekends of hard work and when we finally finished we were so happy and proud of ourselves. Well this year I feel like it looks worse than it did last year. My fiance hasn't made any effort to even cut the grass in the past couple of weeks. I am trying to be understanding that he works at least 50 hours a week and his job is stressful. But at the same time I can't help but get upset when he lets things like this go. In the summer our yard needs cut at least twice a week, if even just one time gets missed it is such a hassle to get it back under control.

I finally lost it today, out back gate fell down about 3 weeks ago. A bush started growing into it and according to my fiance it was "broken" and needed some new parts to be fixed. We have 3 dogs, 2 of which live inside and the other is an inside/sleeps in the garage dog. They haven't been able to just go run in their backyard in 3 weeks now. They are going stir crazy. Not to mention, I am sick of walking them on the leash when we have a HUGE fenced in backyard. I took a nap today, woke up and started my nesting binge and somehow ended up in the yard. I cut down a bush, fixed the gate (in under 10 min), and sent a text threatening that I would mow if I could only crank the push mower. I then called and fussed at my fiance that I understand he works a lot but it is still his responsiblity to not let the yard get out of control. Now he feels awful and said he is going to come home and immediately mow the yard. I hate making him feel bad but sometimes I feel that he just needs that extra boost of motivation to get things done. He is amazing and I have no room to complain as he could be so much worse.

So now I am worried things are going to be strained between us when he gets home and I can't stand when we are fussing. I feel I did the right thing but maybe I should have been nicer.