25-7-2009 - Reflecting- A Letter to Hudson

My mood while writing this blog: happy

I have been wanting to write about my entire pregnancy for my little guy's baby book and thought typing it on here would make it easier and faster.

To Hudson:

I never thought I would find someone who makes me as happy as your Daddy does. We met while in college and it was probably the best thing that could have happened for both of us. After I graduated we began to make plans for our future.We decided to relocate to his hometown of Oxford, AL and wow was joining the real world a shock. We both struggled to find jobs and to just make it from day to day. I honestly don't think I could have made it through the summer of 2008 without the strength and bright outlook of your Daddy. Well we made it through and things were beginning to finally smooth out by the fall. We had both settled into busy work schedules and were ready to take on the world. Around Thanksgiving my body began to feel different, something just wasn't right. I soon began thinking "what if I am pregnant", but kept dismissing it. My mom actually out of the blue one day asked me when I planned on having children and I shared with her that I was worried I wasn't even able to, due to losing an ovary at such a young age. Well, the more I thought about it, the more I realized something was just not feeling right for me. Finally, the night before Thanksgiving, we went out with friends and on the way home, I told your Daddy that we needed to buy a test. We went to Walmart at probably 3 in the morning, bought the test and headed home. I took the test and it instantly gave us the pregnancy result. I took another just to be sure. We decided that night that we would not panic, that you were a blessing and we could not wait to tell EVERYONE. We had Thanksgiving with each of our families the next day, but we wanted a positive result from a Dr. before we told anyone. The next day we got our positive result and told our parents. Your NannyJ, being the emotional one, ordered everything off the menu at the restaurant and finally settled into excitement a couple of days later. Your Nana Knight was so excited from the start, especially about buying you anything and everything. So with our families support, we embarked on the best journey I have known so far in my life.

I can't complain about this pregnancy. I was so tired the first several weeks but not too sick. We got to hear your heartbeat and see you for the first time at 7 weeks. It was amazing. We became very impatient to know if you were going to be a girl or a boy. We had a couple of ultrasounds at 16 and 17 weeks and were told you were a girl. We decided to name you Anna Brooke and started calling you that immediately. Well, you showed us then that you would let us know when we were wrong. At your 19 week ultrasound, you proudly showed your parents there was nothing girly about you. We were so excited and called everybody within just minutes of finding out. Hudson Dee became your name, Hudson we just came across and really liked, and Dee you received from your Daddy and his family. Everything became so real for us then and patience went out the door. We were so excited to be having a boy and couldn't wait to share our love of sports with you. We instantly decided that your nursery would be Atlanta Braves, it was only fitting as the Braves are a huge part of our relationship. The remainder of my pregnancy has had its ups and downs. Lots of aches and pains, but overall everything has been worth it. We had two baby showers, and we received almost everything we needed to bring you into the world. Our families have truly made it us feel loved and blessed. They can't wait for you to arrive.

As I write this, you are scheduled to arrive by induction really soon. It is Saturday and I have to be at the hospital at midnight on Sunday night. I have never looked forward to any event in my life anywhere near this much. I am so ready to meet you and hold you in my arms. I am beyond ready for your Daddy to be able to feel the physical closeness I have shared with you the past 9 months. I can't wait to see what color hair and eyes you have. Your three puppy brothers, Boyd, Blue, and Coach, are going to have their world turned upside down when you arrive, but I can't wait to see them learn to love you and you to love them. I love you so much already and I know that will only continue to grow more and more over time. I feel like my life is truly beginning now and that my future is going to be amazing. Tonight will be the last night your Daddy and I go to bed alone, we will return as a family and continue this journey of life teaching and learning from one another.

I Love You!