03-8-2009 - 1st Week

My mood while writing this blog: Happy

I can't believe a week has already passed since my little Hudson joined us. It almost makes me sad that time feels like it is flying by already. His looks have already changed so much just in a week. A week ago at this exact time, I was pushing to get my little guy out...this week I am watching him snooze on his boppy. He is such a good baby. I can't complain at all. He is very content and only cries when he is needing a diaper change or is hungry. He is pretty much sleeping through the night, he only woke up twice last night. I was prepared to have a crying, never sleepy baby and I guess I was wrong, because this little guy is very laid back.

Today was the first day that I have finally felt like he is all ours. My mom stayed the first few days we were home and as thankful as I am, I was really ready to get into my own routine with him. It seems like so many people have been here and I feel like I barely got to hold him the entire first week. I am having a hard time with my fiance going back to work. It was great to have a week together, we never have this much time to ourselves. I am also having a hard time adjusting to the fact that my fiance's family is going to want to be here all the time. Hudson has a second-cousin that is 3 months old and they are already trying to compare them. I am dreading them having to go through that their entire lives.

I am ready to be past this overly emotional stage, and I can tell I am getting better with each day. Yet I still get a little teary-eyed when I think about being pregnant. I want to feel that closeness to him again and I just haven't yet. I mean I feel very close to him but its just not the same, I miss him being all mine and not having to really share him.