10-8-2009 - 2nd Week

My mood while writing this blog: blessed

So the 2nd week was definitely a lot better than the first. My emotions seemed to balance out more and more every day. We have also fallen into a routine of things and that made everything so much better. This past week we only had a couple of visitors and a lot more time of Hudson all to ourselves. I started feeling a lot better after we took him out of the house for the first time. I think I just needed some fresh air. It is such an amazing feeling to look down at that little face and know that my fiance and I made him and we are responsible for raising him. We are learning everyday and getting better at changing diapers and such.

I am still having some issues with my MIL. I am just not comfortable with the thought of her watching him. She begged us to let her watch him yesterday afternoon, so that we could get some rest and I just couldn't do it. Everytime she comes over he is asleep and she shakes his head to try and wake him. I am trying to be polite but who does that? She also smokes in her house and she knows that I don't want anyone smoking around him, but she also didn't mind lighting up in front of me the entire time I was pregnant, so what would stop her now. She was watching her bestfriends 2 year old yesterday and I cringed when I looked and he was playing with a bottle of spray cleaner. I have always felt there are people who are just motherly women, and unfortunately she just isn't. She admits she didn't have a lot to do with my fiance when he was a little baby, she moved back in with her mom and her mom did everything. I know I am going to have to get to a point of being comfortable with her, or it is just going to cause major problems.

Time seems to be flying by and I am just not ready for it to. I am fortunate to have 8 weeks to spend with him before returning to work, but that 8 is now only 6 and I am so not looking forward to it. I am returning to working from home today and we will see how that goes!